a ghost in georgia

once again im writing from my phone. so excuse any errors. i do enjoy be able to do this becuase of the versitile nature of a smart phone... but on with it right? ok

" i woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when i didnt know who i was - i was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the crack of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and i looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didnt know who i was for about 15 seconds. I wasnt scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my wholle life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across america, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future, and maybe that's why it happened right there and then, that strange red afternoon. " - Jack Kerouac "on the road" exerpt.

 so this is one of my favorite passages from the book On the Road, i mean it fits my experience to a T when i left florida and headed back home to ohio this year. I remember traveling up 75 and just before the sun started setting. Elvis and I stopped off to watch the sunset. Elvis is my dog. for those who do not know that. We walked out into a pecan orchard . drinkin an ice tea. it was a strange feeling watching that sunset. i felt as if i was leaving all the immaturity of life behind, maturing more as i was moving north. i felt as if i was like a ghost just moving between states and between lives. not a real person but just a shell who is here today and just a thought in the wind the next day. i remember a soothing feeling that personally i can say felt like a weird right of passage into adulthood... at 30 years old... i do remember a feeling of comfort though... just a new chapter in life starting.. a new story to be shared. the feeling of watching that sunset i will never forget. it seemed to shape my whole life since ive been back. it had that much of an impact on me... but enough for today i gotta get back to work
until tomorrow keep your eye on the sky and an ear out for trains.. watch the rails becxuas i might be comin your way-

cg

on the road.. a reason to stay free!!!

so today im updating my blog from my phone. forgive me for grammatical errors and punctuation. it has also been a while since i have last blogged about travel and my adventures through this life i have led.
i started rereading on the road by jack kerouac and its gotten ne thinkin of how much i can identify with alot of the travel stories and the veiw from travelling. the personal and interpersonal relationships and views of people and places.
 it wasnt long ago that i could and did have the nerve and guts to pack up a few things and take off into adventures that i only could dream about. traveling across the country on a whim and the desires of a life that i wanted and read about in books nnewspapers and magazines. to travel like this was exciting. going from city to city just to see what it was about.
 the first stop in any city i traveled to was a bar, not just to have a drink but to find a good lookin gal to show me around and see if the city had anything to offer. to see if i could really dig on the scene. man i tell you that some days i wish i could do it all again. just pack up a bag of a few clothes and take off across the country, but now i have my dog. working towards a great career. andf with being sober things have changed.
 sure i look back at how careless. carefree . and how absolutely crazy i must have been to people. just to get up and go to find something that i was searching for. im still to this day searching for that. whatever it is. maybe its the spark of life that rushes in when you show up someplace new. knowing not a soul in the town and by the end of the day you already have a few friends that you have met over beers. no thats not it... maybe its the feeing of really letting go of everything thats holding you back to see the world for what it really is and experience life the way it should be lived...free....yes yes my friends that is it..
i remember the day i got my knuckles tattoed very vividly and why i got them done. for those of you who do not know they say stay free on them. i was just about to move back from california to cincinnati and i knew that to me the real freedom of life was just that . that real aspect of travel and giving yourself just enougg room to let go of everything. the space between heart mind body and soul. that loose parallel you have as you awake in the morning into a translucent state of not fully awake and not fully asleep. well at least thats how im going to describe it. i think its time for me to enter that space again. not to leave for good but to get out again and on the road for short bursts and short trips.. this time no beer or booze just good clean fun and adventure. this time to experience another part of america.. this time a forelorn love affair with the national parks and wilderne3ss of america or perhaps the long time traditions of the colonies, perhaps back to mexico for adventures. or even to europe for some hiking and learning the rich cultures of other old worldy times... yes my friends adventure time is alast here.. i encourage everyone to do some adventuring, get out of your usual comfort zone and go out and be free... get out and stay free!

i just wanna ride my bike and clear my head

so its been a while since ive blogged about anything and today isnt much different.
 After hearing about a friend who was shot and killed by cincinnati police early this morning im still in shock! I dont understand a lot of what the police are saying nor do i beleive it! Reports are saying he pulled a knife on the police, but eyewitness saying something else. Knowing him, and hearing these details are soo vastly different that it doesnt make sense so im terribly confused... until i find out the full story im chaulking this one up to police officer error. until tomorrow... ill post more but right now i just wanna ride my bike and clear my head,....

friday.. a day that im hyped about!

So i have not posted a blog in a few days.. or even a week.. s lets recap whats happened so far and what youve missed...

 So last week i got 2 teeth pulled, my number 16 moler.. and my number 32 wisdom tooth, which had to be cut out and the stitches have almost all finally come out! it was definately a fun time, well at least the first four days of being drugged up were... but now i thought i had dry socket BUT turned out i had a stitch and a knot that for some reason came out and got wedged between my two bottom molers and cuased some serious pain and irretation. Finally i pulled it out last night and i feel a million times better now!!

 Ive also decided its time for a total make over on my VW. i was originally going to pick up an audi s4 2.8l biturbo BUT have decided to go with my original plan: 1987 BMW 325is conversion! the golf is going to get a total face lift as well... all the work should take me about a month or less depending on my work schedule.  talking right hand drive, rear wheel drive, chopped top and some other special things i have planned for this car.. Why? why not! i love customizing cars, its a passion of mine and i love it.. i love making something look completely different, something jaw dropping.. something that you will look at and go.. Hmm man i love how you did that or How the hell? my favorite thing to hear is : i wish i wouldve done that to my car, thats amazing.. wanna do some work on mine?

 So this weekend im going to be finishing up some work for my friend nicoles parents and that should be great! I got my haircut today, which i am super excited about since i have needed one, i also finally got my glasses about a week or so ago.. and its a good thing... hanging with bill, sara, rob and having a good time like usual on friday nights! let the coffee flow and let the exchange of thoughts, ideas and the excursion of life begin!!!!!
 IM OUT!!!



see you all next time!