tonight im doing something different. im writing my blog from my phone.. gonna give it a shot so here goes...
tonight i have been forced to contimplate myself. my outlook on life. my over all self in all forms. i am pretty happy with myself. my friends. my choices and my current life situation. i currently have been doing alot of soul searching to find myself and my center. i have found it1 i have also come to grips with what my most troubled part is. my lonliness.
i am lonely only during a few hours of the day it seems.. coming home from work to a house with my dog and cats.. when i wake up and theres nobody there.. doesnt feel like theres someone i can call to just share great news with or vent to when i need it. doesnt feel like there is someone there who anticipates hearing from me. but maybe there is and i just am too blind to see it.
everything dies alone.. honestly this is what i needed to hear becuase in the end its just you. your thoughts. your actions and your feelings. sometimes i feel as though when i go bed each night i die each time. i mean if you really tthink about it im pretty correct in that thought. you close your eyes and fall asleep.. thats one more day gone.. and all that your left with is your thoughts. emotions and your actions..and of course yourself. but you awaken to a new day . a new life.. a new chance. so maybe i am correct in saying that everynight i die alone. and awaken to do it again the next day.
seems like i have tapped a nerve with this topic. it may be morbid or sound like im being emo. but i have excepted my fate and destiny.. i do not chose my path.. i am guided on this jourbney through life. no matter how long i have. may it be a long while or maybe just for today. i have accepted that i may never know the meaning of life and im ok with that. ive come to the conclusion that if i am honest with everyone. share whats on my mind. speak my feelings and speak from the heart .. that i can rest comfortably at night knowing i didnt let something i wish i wouldve said go unheard.
wow... you may think im really sounded depressed as hell right now but im not.. there are alot of things that i can write about and let flow from my mind to my fingers and onto the keypad tonight.. but this was just what i had on my mind as i started writing. but the title of this is what was really testing my brain to put down...d
should i be afraid to fall asleep each night in fear of death... no becuase i know theres always something better. wether its a new day or a new beginning... in the end it doesnt really matter does it.. becuase everything dies alone
so goodnight.. in the morning im off to get some oral surgery done and i have never been put under so maybe thats another reason why i write about such a topic tonight..but thanks for reading my blog. i never know if anyone likes it or even really reads it since i never hear any feedback about it so.. let me know what you think
thanks and goodnight
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
how to sooth my soul....
well once again im feeling the calm in my soul! there are very few things at help me feel at one within myself and right now im there..
I can go on and on about a lot of things but there really are just a few things that make me feel whole.. and ive come to the conclusion that its getting to that point that i need to move again, i gotta get back to my heart and soul and be at peace and in harmony.
So as for the things that make me feel the harmony flow there are quite a few but i will only dive into the ones that really make the cut! ill start with 5 of them and work from the least to the most... so without further adou ( im not french nor speak french so thats my best spelling)
5: bats :
Now you may ask.. why bats? really? well i think that bats are my totem spirit, i have always been i awe of them. The first week i quite drinking i rode my bike like usual to and from work. well the first night i rode to one of my first AA meetings; i rode home afterwards.. just at dusk too.. and everytime i looked up there was a large pack of bats following me from the meeting all the way home.. they would be behind me, in front and all around ... it was awesome! I still love watching bats, they are a wonderous creature and i respect them 100% . Flying mammals using sonar, catching all the bugs that annoy me and everyone else, watching them fly through the setting sun is still amazing! since spring is here now and that means ill get to start watching them again!
4:driving:
YES DRIVING! i know most people hate to drive, the stress of other drivers, the traffic, the cost of gas... hell i hate the cost of gas but i love to drive, im never in a hurry no matter where im going.. i cruise! if im going to be late oh well! tough shit! i love the freedom of traveling either in my car or on my bike! i am going to include bicycles in the driving aspect as well becuase i have equal joy associated with them. i really wonder how many people actually pay attention to their surroundings while driving or just look at the road... im constantly scanning the area looking always at something new to me.. either seeing houses through the trees int he winter when the foilage is absent or noticing someone painted their barn, or left a feild baren this season... no matter where i go im always looking out and taking in my surroundings, next time you drive maybe instead of getting frustrated take a look at whats out there...
3:the sun:
honestly i dont think i have to explain this one to anyone.. everyone loves the sun.. the warmth from it on your skin, getting a tan so you can join the BBB club... thats Bronze Buff and Bitchin Club! so now ill plead the fifth on it.. you know why the sun is a soul pleaser
2:music:
once again i dont think i have to explain anything about music... if you know me then you understand just how important music is to me!! its my life, my blood, my soul!!
1: surfing:
Ah yes! number one!!!SURFING! yes i know im landlocked AGAIN! and this is why i need to move or find a great job that allows me to travel to the coasts.... hint hint.. someone hook me up! anyways... lets dive into this one.. since its my number one... The Aloha Spirit has always been with me.. i love to have fun, i respect the ocean more then 90% of people i have met.. i have a relationship with Mother Ocean that most of you would never notice or understand... i talk to the ocean when im out in the lineup or sitting on the beach. I have a great deal of respect for older surfers and other surfers. Im passionate about this one, i mean VERY passionate!
To those of you who have never surfed well i dont think i can quite capture the feeling, the Stoke or .. The Aloha Spirit in words for you! but i will try...
Living in Florida was tough.. i didnt have a board.. and i didnt have enough money to buy a new one since i was the only one working and all of that money went to pay bills and couldnt save up enough to buy another 9'3" noserider... my favorite!! so while in florida i did get to surf a few times with a couple people which helped me find myself again!! when i lived in Ca i had a board and surfed every morning at 6 am... id get up at 530.. have a cup of coffee take a hydroxycut put on my wetsuit and walk 100 yards to the water.. yes i lived on the water/beach... thats when i was at one with myself, too bad i didnt quit drinking then.,.. i think i would have stayed there and made my situation better.. but thats not here nor there..
What is it about the ocean, about surfing, about life that makes this so important to me..???? well in my eyes, i cant really explain to you how it feels.. it comes from inside.. i mean the smile i have when writing this isnt just on my face.. its coming from inside! this topic makes me happy.. so what is so special about riding on a peice of wood on water thats traveling at about the same pace as we run? What is so special about the ocean? wheres the fear of sharks? well the fear of sharks i have but at the same time... once i smell that ocean breeze and feel the sand between my toes, it dissappears.. it doesnt exist! i have a healthy relationship with the ocean i respect her, and treat well! if its my time to be atacked by a shark then so be it.. im not going to let that control my surfing.. i surf becuase its me! it makes me mellow, ITS MY CHURCH!
My Church? YES my church! now im guessing but i think of it as the same feeling people who let spirit in at church.
i live my life like i surf, im a longboarder.. its not about fast quick turns or flashy manuevers on the lip.. to me its about style and letting the wave take over and guide you... like life!! the feeling of dropping in is one i will always think of, just that one moment.. i mean really.. its one moment at a time.. its church that happens in less then 5 minutes... i mean one ride on a wave can last 30 seconds.. and that right there is a moment that makes my soul whole! and its just you and the ocean!! ugh i cant express the feeling thats there.. becuase every wave is different! and just think your on that ONE wave.. That ONE wave.. you ride it and it crashes and is done.. and all thats left is you..until the next wave.. its a constant cycle but every wave is different.. so your day surfing is made up of 100s of moments... ill add a video that kinda sums up what im trying to say.. if i can find it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
found it and just watched it.. honestly it brings tears of joy to my eye to hear these guys talk about it just how i feel about it!! Oh my god... i think i need more of this in my life! now copy the link and watch it!!! this film actually is a life changer... even if you have never surfed.. you should watch the movie at any chance you get!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
Now i gotta get to the beach, back to mother ocean, back to life, back to my soul.. without that salt water i feel like my soul is shriveling up... but like a house plant.. it could dry out.. add water.. and Boom.. its back to life!
I can go on and on about a lot of things but there really are just a few things that make me feel whole.. and ive come to the conclusion that its getting to that point that i need to move again, i gotta get back to my heart and soul and be at peace and in harmony.
So as for the things that make me feel the harmony flow there are quite a few but i will only dive into the ones that really make the cut! ill start with 5 of them and work from the least to the most... so without further adou ( im not french nor speak french so thats my best spelling)
5: bats :
Now you may ask.. why bats? really? well i think that bats are my totem spirit, i have always been i awe of them. The first week i quite drinking i rode my bike like usual to and from work. well the first night i rode to one of my first AA meetings; i rode home afterwards.. just at dusk too.. and everytime i looked up there was a large pack of bats following me from the meeting all the way home.. they would be behind me, in front and all around ... it was awesome! I still love watching bats, they are a wonderous creature and i respect them 100% . Flying mammals using sonar, catching all the bugs that annoy me and everyone else, watching them fly through the setting sun is still amazing! since spring is here now and that means ill get to start watching them again!
4:driving:
YES DRIVING! i know most people hate to drive, the stress of other drivers, the traffic, the cost of gas... hell i hate the cost of gas but i love to drive, im never in a hurry no matter where im going.. i cruise! if im going to be late oh well! tough shit! i love the freedom of traveling either in my car or on my bike! i am going to include bicycles in the driving aspect as well becuase i have equal joy associated with them. i really wonder how many people actually pay attention to their surroundings while driving or just look at the road... im constantly scanning the area looking always at something new to me.. either seeing houses through the trees int he winter when the foilage is absent or noticing someone painted their barn, or left a feild baren this season... no matter where i go im always looking out and taking in my surroundings, next time you drive maybe instead of getting frustrated take a look at whats out there...
3:the sun:
honestly i dont think i have to explain this one to anyone.. everyone loves the sun.. the warmth from it on your skin, getting a tan so you can join the BBB club... thats Bronze Buff and Bitchin Club! so now ill plead the fifth on it.. you know why the sun is a soul pleaser
2:music:
once again i dont think i have to explain anything about music... if you know me then you understand just how important music is to me!! its my life, my blood, my soul!!
1: surfing:
Ah yes! number one!!!SURFING! yes i know im landlocked AGAIN! and this is why i need to move or find a great job that allows me to travel to the coasts.... hint hint.. someone hook me up! anyways... lets dive into this one.. since its my number one... The Aloha Spirit has always been with me.. i love to have fun, i respect the ocean more then 90% of people i have met.. i have a relationship with Mother Ocean that most of you would never notice or understand... i talk to the ocean when im out in the lineup or sitting on the beach. I have a great deal of respect for older surfers and other surfers. Im passionate about this one, i mean VERY passionate!
To those of you who have never surfed well i dont think i can quite capture the feeling, the Stoke or .. The Aloha Spirit in words for you! but i will try...
Living in Florida was tough.. i didnt have a board.. and i didnt have enough money to buy a new one since i was the only one working and all of that money went to pay bills and couldnt save up enough to buy another 9'3" noserider... my favorite!! so while in florida i did get to surf a few times with a couple people which helped me find myself again!! when i lived in Ca i had a board and surfed every morning at 6 am... id get up at 530.. have a cup of coffee take a hydroxycut put on my wetsuit and walk 100 yards to the water.. yes i lived on the water/beach... thats when i was at one with myself, too bad i didnt quit drinking then.,.. i think i would have stayed there and made my situation better.. but thats not here nor there..
What is it about the ocean, about surfing, about life that makes this so important to me..???? well in my eyes, i cant really explain to you how it feels.. it comes from inside.. i mean the smile i have when writing this isnt just on my face.. its coming from inside! this topic makes me happy.. so what is so special about riding on a peice of wood on water thats traveling at about the same pace as we run? What is so special about the ocean? wheres the fear of sharks? well the fear of sharks i have but at the same time... once i smell that ocean breeze and feel the sand between my toes, it dissappears.. it doesnt exist! i have a healthy relationship with the ocean i respect her, and treat well! if its my time to be atacked by a shark then so be it.. im not going to let that control my surfing.. i surf becuase its me! it makes me mellow, ITS MY CHURCH!
My Church? YES my church! now im guessing but i think of it as the same feeling people who let spirit in at church.
i live my life like i surf, im a longboarder.. its not about fast quick turns or flashy manuevers on the lip.. to me its about style and letting the wave take over and guide you... like life!! the feeling of dropping in is one i will always think of, just that one moment.. i mean really.. its one moment at a time.. its church that happens in less then 5 minutes... i mean one ride on a wave can last 30 seconds.. and that right there is a moment that makes my soul whole! and its just you and the ocean!! ugh i cant express the feeling thats there.. becuase every wave is different! and just think your on that ONE wave.. That ONE wave.. you ride it and it crashes and is done.. and all thats left is you..until the next wave.. its a constant cycle but every wave is different.. so your day surfing is made up of 100s of moments... ill add a video that kinda sums up what im trying to say.. if i can find it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
found it and just watched it.. honestly it brings tears of joy to my eye to hear these guys talk about it just how i feel about it!! Oh my god... i think i need more of this in my life! now copy the link and watch it!!! this film actually is a life changer... even if you have never surfed.. you should watch the movie at any chance you get!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
Now i gotta get to the beach, back to mother ocean, back to life, back to my soul.. without that salt water i feel like my soul is shriveling up... but like a house plant.. it could dry out.. add water.. and Boom.. its back to life!
Monday, March 21, 2011
the most relaxed state is: me!
Get outside and enjoy the day! first day of spring too so leave work early and get outside!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Do or Do Not, there is no TRY
well its friday and that means only one thing: the weekend! Now this weekend is different then any of the others.. im going to do something BIG this weekend.. what is it ? well i thought you would ask that! |
| this guy wont find me! |
I know next weekend i may go camping with the Reeves.. my best friends and their two kids who to them i am Uncle Casey! But this weekend i may not update anything.. just forget all about technology and leave it all at home..
Today has been a good day up until the rain started falling.. that was a killer on my mood and my energy! Yesterday i hit 88, today im going back .. way back.. im...... outta heeerrrrrreeeeeee.......
see ya on monday! :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Time Travel and my weekend.. lets hit 88
So its been about a week since my last blog.. and i guess its high time i fill you in on my last week/weekend... today we are going to hit 88 mph and go back... back to the Future!
So let's recap starting with friday:
Friday i traveled up to dayton/ fairborn to links and kinks bike shop, that my buddy Bryan owns. We worked on a bike for the Spring Break Bike Polo Tournament in Lexington. Took almost all day to powder coat the frame and fork, find a headset that would work... also picked up a new bike for parts and the wheels off it! So friday night i tuned up the bike and worked on packing everything for the weekend.. The frame is Halloween Metallic ( a high flake orange) and the forks are Tuscan Black (flat black)
Saturday, so up at 7 am.. pack the car with my bike, bag and the dog.. drove over to my moms to drop off Elvis for the day.. and take off to Lexington for a Huge Weekend!!! The drive was great, sunny, and didnt seem to take as long as i thought it would.. maybe becuase i was excited and i was jammin out all the way down I-75.. Arrive in Lexington at the polo courts , which by the way are AMAZING, around 11 am.. i was the 3rd one there... borrowed a mallot from someone and started warming up. I have not played polo in about 3 to 3.5 years.. and i was rusty, i mean REALLY rusty! I decided to run my bike Fixed gear, no brake, Big Mistake! shouldve kept it with a brake and freewheel.. i would have been better playing and had more fun... also wish i wouldve put a more comfortable saddle on the bike.... anyways.. after about 9 hours of polo with people from all over the USA... pittsburg, atlanta, chicago, ann arbor, cleveland, cincinnati, st.louis, new york.. it was a huge event.. roughly 60 people!! well by the end of the day i was so tired, sore and ready for a massage and a hot tub! Decided to head back to cincy to change parts out on my bike for the big tourney on sunday... this was to be my undoing... and most likely one of the most costly things to do.. Heading back from lexington... on 75n i knew to avoid potholes... so i stayed to the left.. but after about 40 minutes of driving i was pretty damn hungry.. after not really eating all day.. i decided to change lanes.. as soon as my front passenger wheel started over the dotted line.. BOOM! huge pothole.. and instantly knew i was fucked!
So sitting on the side of the road i called roadside assistance since i dont have a jack in my car... well while waiting i looked at the damage: Split Tire, Bent Rim, Blown Strut, fucked control arm... and all my bushings needed replaced... not a happy camper by this time... but finally the BIG good ole boy came and changed my wheel for me... and hobbled back home.. after leaving lexington at 9:30 and arriving back to my house at 1:00am ... made for a long day and knowing i wouldnt make the tournament the next day was really bumming me out...
Sunday.. woke up not feeling good... drank 2 gatorades and seemed like i was just dehydrated and that was a relief! didnt really do much either that day..
the rest of my week has been pretty tame.. nothing really exciting going on!
But today is St.Patricks Day.. i used to love this holiday!i mean what other reason is there to get blatently drunk and act a fool? besides Oktoberfest, this is the party day of the year... oh yeah New Years too... But this year its different.. 1: i dont drink anymore 2: im not irish 3: im not really excited about it,
I mean tonight is going to be fun just watching all the drunk ass people on Mainstrasse acting a fool, puking on themselves, getting aressted for pissing in the streets, fighting , and other stuff.. I love watching people when you know something is going to happen! Im pretty excited to see how many people have green puke all over their shirts, pants, shoes.. and how many of them are getting carried out by their equally drunk friends... hhahaha this is actually making me excited for St.Pattys day..
Well im gonna hop back into my Delorean and hit 88.... becuase i gotta get back in time...... gotta get back in time ( huey lewis and the news does that song for those who dont know that, he also is the judge at the tryouts for the high school bands in the gymnasium that marty's band trys out for)
Later!
So let's recap starting with friday:
Friday i traveled up to dayton/ fairborn to links and kinks bike shop, that my buddy Bryan owns. We worked on a bike for the Spring Break Bike Polo Tournament in Lexington. Took almost all day to powder coat the frame and fork, find a headset that would work... also picked up a new bike for parts and the wheels off it! So friday night i tuned up the bike and worked on packing everything for the weekend.. The frame is Halloween Metallic ( a high flake orange) and the forks are Tuscan Black (flat black)
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| This dude changed my tire |
So sitting on the side of the road i called roadside assistance since i dont have a jack in my car... well while waiting i looked at the damage: Split Tire, Bent Rim, Blown Strut, fucked control arm... and all my bushings needed replaced... not a happy camper by this time... but finally the BIG good ole boy came and changed my wheel for me... and hobbled back home.. after leaving lexington at 9:30 and arriving back to my house at 1:00am ... made for a long day and knowing i wouldnt make the tournament the next day was really bumming me out...
Sunday.. woke up not feeling good... drank 2 gatorades and seemed like i was just dehydrated and that was a relief! didnt really do much either that day..the rest of my week has been pretty tame.. nothing really exciting going on!
But today is St.Patricks Day.. i used to love this holiday!i mean what other reason is there to get blatently drunk and act a fool? besides Oktoberfest, this is the party day of the year... oh yeah New Years too... But this year its different.. 1: i dont drink anymore 2: im not irish 3: im not really excited about it,
Well im gonna hop back into my Delorean and hit 88.... becuase i gotta get back in time...... gotta get back in time ( huey lewis and the news does that song for those who dont know that, he also is the judge at the tryouts for the high school bands in the gymnasium that marty's band trys out for)
Later!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
The adventures of a Shrimp Hunter
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| way to high maintenance to be on my crew! |
But i wonder if theres a big market for naturally caught shrimp? i mean there is a huge trend going on with the Organic market... so it would be "Captain Casey's Organic Naturally Caught Shrimp" ... and i would rule the super markets with an Iron Fist! I wonder what kind of ship i would need? a scooner? or a pirate ship? yeah a pirate ship would work.. i have a feeling it would be a battle against other fisherman.. but my crew would be ruthless and fearless...
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| maybe these guys, if we were searching for butts to plunder |
Monday, March 7, 2011
My dog's a Terrorist and i need a Bean Bag Chair!!
So ive come to terms with my insomnia... not that its a major problem.. my brain wont shut off sometimes.
So ive had an emotional weekend, the weather pissing me off, my house having issues as well, and well then theres quitting smoking too! All of which seems to culminate and seed into my brain and interrupt my sleep patterns. I get tired but im too anxious to fall asleep, so as i lay there trying to sleep my brain goes into full on attack mode! Sleep? no! Dreams? got em but what happened to them? Over time im noticing a major change in myself.. my dependancy on other people? maybe... or maybe im just bored and when i say bored.. i mean BORED! This weather has got to go!!! i need bright sunshine and temps above 60 to make me happy.. so why not move back to Fl or someplace warm? I have thought about it, but honestly im not ready to make another move just yet.. gotta see where "this thing" takes me... anyways...
So i think i need a bean bag chair... since thursday ive logged 433 minutes playing video games and my ass hurts form sitting on my floor.. why do i sit on the floor? i dont know.. ive always done it that way. So im thinking of getting one of those huge giant ones that my best friends have at their house for their kids! they are pretty comfy and im sure my dog would end up using it as his bed instead of trying to takeover mine!
Sleeping while theres a terrorist trying to inch out every possible area on the bed to sleep is very hard to do! Yes i have deemed my dog as a bed terrorist! Invading all possible areas that in which i want my legs and body in. Conquering all corners of the bed until finally i am pushed out and the only thing left to do is drop a nuke on the bed or napalm. He tries to wrestle the blankets away from me like they are camo covering up his secret base and military weapons he has been stock piling over the years. I dont worry so much about Bin Laden and Al Queda... more worried about Osama Bin Elvis and his trusty 2 kitty cat sidekicks.. tryin to takeover the bed! This is another reason i cant sleep.. cant get comfortable.. and i know everyone says.. just kick im off or keep him out of your room at night.. i would except he has super high abandonment issues! But until the day coems when i can get it off the bed.. i guess im going to keep fighting terrorism one night at a time!
But enough about sleep.. today is a beautiful day and im going to enjoy it as much as i possibly can!! maybe take the bike out for a ride around sharonville... other then that lets hope that the sun decides to stick around... i need it more and more since this weather is driving me crazy.. like having cabin fever and i live alone so thats a major threat to the american population.. think " massacre on Ohio Ave.. story at 11!!! "
So mother Nature , do your stuff!! bring that warm spring and lets do this!!
So ive had an emotional weekend, the weather pissing me off, my house having issues as well, and well then theres quitting smoking too! All of which seems to culminate and seed into my brain and interrupt my sleep patterns. I get tired but im too anxious to fall asleep, so as i lay there trying to sleep my brain goes into full on attack mode! Sleep? no! Dreams? got em but what happened to them? Over time im noticing a major change in myself.. my dependancy on other people? maybe... or maybe im just bored and when i say bored.. i mean BORED! This weather has got to go!!! i need bright sunshine and temps above 60 to make me happy.. so why not move back to Fl or someplace warm? I have thought about it, but honestly im not ready to make another move just yet.. gotta see where "this thing" takes me... anyways...
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| ill take the Chair AND the lady with it!! |
Sleeping while theres a terrorist trying to inch out every possible area on the bed to sleep is very hard to do! Yes i have deemed my dog as a bed terrorist! Invading all possible areas that in which i want my legs and body in. Conquering all corners of the bed until finally i am pushed out and the only thing left to do is drop a nuke on the bed or napalm. He tries to wrestle the blankets away from me like they are camo covering up his secret base and military weapons he has been stock piling over the years. I dont worry so much about Bin Laden and Al Queda... more worried about Osama Bin Elvis and his trusty 2 kitty cat sidekicks.. tryin to takeover the bed! This is another reason i cant sleep.. cant get comfortable.. and i know everyone says.. just kick im off or keep him out of your room at night.. i would except he has super high abandonment issues! But until the day coems when i can get it off the bed.. i guess im going to keep fighting terrorism one night at a time!
But enough about sleep.. today is a beautiful day and im going to enjoy it as much as i possibly can!! maybe take the bike out for a ride around sharonville... other then that lets hope that the sun decides to stick around... i need it more and more since this weather is driving me crazy.. like having cabin fever and i live alone so thats a major threat to the american population.. think " massacre on Ohio Ave.. story at 11!!! "
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| about what i feel like sometimes! |
Friday, March 4, 2011
Who Pissed in the Ball Pit?
So after being back in Cincy for about a month now, i have finally gotten everything put away and everything lookin good! I went out and bought a few shelving systems last night, got the rest of my shelves put up, and put all my dvds, video games, and records put up and stored properly.. took me a few hours to get everything the way i wanted it. I also built a new lamp/bike rack on my wall. I think it looks awesome!
Ok enough of that... its Friday and im ready for the weekend! It does suck that its raining today, kinda made my day a little depressing. But shit i cant be depressed.. what would i be depressed about anyway? NOTHING! Im living the dream and living large. Im pretty damn happy about everything and if anything i might be a little bummed about the weather. Thats it...
Well tomorrow ill be heading to dayton to party oin down at Chuck E. Cheese for my neices 2nd birthday! gonna be awesome and that means.. Pizza, Games, and peeing in the ball pit!! I mean seriously i wonder how many kids pee in the ball pit? why not just pee on a slide? its more entertaining to pee on a slide... i know from experience.. so far thats all i have planned for my weekend...I know, I know... not as exciting as my other blogs but its rainy and im not in the writing mood! But stay tuned because tomorrow i may be reporting LIVE from the Piss filled Ball Pit of Chuck E. Cheese...
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Global Boombox.. WTF is that???
So once again im talking about traveling, something i am passionate about! For years i have wanted to have my own show on Travel channel, or discovery channel but just recently i realized that i would be much more suited for VH1 or something along those lines. My show i want to propose to a major television network would just be me to different countries to experience their music, the culture around the music and to learn some of it myself. Interesting? i think so. Theres really only a few things that rival my passion for music... those would be travel, adventure, and fun!
Imagine me, in spain.. learning more about flamenco, yes it should come natural to me..since i can play a little flamenco and mariachi style guitar.. but to experience it the way its ment to be.. to live amongst the people and musicians for a bit and really get a feel for what drives the music!
Music has always reflected to me the struggles of people.. without the struggle music really has no meaning. Look at Punk.. through disorder and rebellion came a form of music that was so angry, violent, and hell overly political at times. Or take a look at swing... highly popular throughout the great depression.. and it has a sound of joy, fun and a sense of wellbeing. Even though the times were the hardest for most americans, the music was a release. a way to forget about the daily hardships and be free for just even 5 minutes.. That is what music is to me!
Music has always been there for me, thats why i am going to school right now to get my degree in Music Business. Time for me to give back a little of what i have taken so much of. I think alot of people take for granted all the music they hear, i know sometimes i do. Im really, really not a fan of commercialized forms of music, but it does have its place. Im more of a fan of raw, original, and underground music. To me, its more Real.. and genuine.
Traveling to experience music would definately be my dream job!! combining the two aspects of my life into one career.. now thats how i want to live! It would be the most rewarding career for myself! I think to me that im more fascinated by seeing how music is effecting other countries. As for an example, take Isreal and a lot of the middle east ; Punk Rock is just really starting to take of there! and not just a little bit.. im talking HUGE!!! Isreal, Iraq, Iran, and Egypt are pumping out tons of punk bands.. why? becuase of the struggle! They finally have a chance to really voice their opinions and views since their governments are going through such radical changes. I honestly wish i could have been there to see it just break through and grab hold of the youth, just to see raw energy and mayhem of music unleashed! I can only imagine what those first few gigs would be like!! must have been one of the greatest experiences.. yes i can romanticize punk rock shows.. being the first few to really unleash pent up aggression and raw emotions. a lot like early New York at CBGB's or in London watching the Clash really bring it down!
Im not too sure what i would call my show.. perhaps something like " World Beat" or something generic like that... maybe something else.. like Global Boombox.. yeah i like that better! So if you know anyone in the "BIZ" that would wanna make my dream a reality.. send em my way... im available to sit down with some big wigs.. talk music and travel.. plot out a few places to go to experience culture, music, and the people who inspire us everyday! I think i got alot of my attitudes and thinking of music from an old friend who is no longer with us, talking with him about global music and what it really can offer us as people was the greatest thing, I learned alot from Joe and i carry that with me everyday.. Sometimes finding some of the weirdest music to listen to can be surprisingly good for your soul.. so today go out and find something weird.. and really listen to it.. dont just hear it, LISTEN!! it may actually open your eyes and soul up to a new place..
Imagine me, in spain.. learning more about flamenco, yes it should come natural to me..since i can play a little flamenco and mariachi style guitar.. but to experience it the way its ment to be.. to live amongst the people and musicians for a bit and really get a feel for what drives the music!Music has always reflected to me the struggles of people.. without the struggle music really has no meaning. Look at Punk.. through disorder and rebellion came a form of music that was so angry, violent, and hell overly political at times. Or take a look at swing... highly popular throughout the great depression.. and it has a sound of joy, fun and a sense of wellbeing. Even though the times were the hardest for most americans, the music was a release. a way to forget about the daily hardships and be free for just even 5 minutes.. That is what music is to me!
Music has always been there for me, thats why i am going to school right now to get my degree in Music Business. Time for me to give back a little of what i have taken so much of. I think alot of people take for granted all the music they hear, i know sometimes i do. Im really, really not a fan of commercialized forms of music, but it does have its place. Im more of a fan of raw, original, and underground music. To me, its more Real.. and genuine.
Traveling to experience music would definately be my dream job!! combining the two aspects of my life into one career.. now thats how i want to live! It would be the most rewarding career for myself! I think to me that im more fascinated by seeing how music is effecting other countries. As for an example, take Isreal and a lot of the middle east ; Punk Rock is just really starting to take of there! and not just a little bit.. im talking HUGE!!! Isreal, Iraq, Iran, and Egypt are pumping out tons of punk bands.. why? becuase of the struggle! They finally have a chance to really voice their opinions and views since their governments are going through such radical changes. I honestly wish i could have been there to see it just break through and grab hold of the youth, just to see raw energy and mayhem of music unleashed! I can only imagine what those first few gigs would be like!! must have been one of the greatest experiences.. yes i can romanticize punk rock shows.. being the first few to really unleash pent up aggression and raw emotions. a lot like early New York at CBGB's or in London watching the Clash really bring it down! |
| the man, the myth, the legand!! Joe! |
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Travel, Travel TRAVEL!!!
Well on to my second blog and today i decided to share a few things that i think are pretty interesting..
TRAVEL!! i love to travel! i also move a lot, from city to city, state to state... I think i have actually spent more time in ohio then anywhere else after i turned 18. I have a need to travel and move, either its my gypsy heritage or its just that i need to learn new things, experience new culture and places. I really want to spend a while in eastern europe, im fascinated at the fact that not too long ago alot of the countries made up the soviet union, also alot of them have fought for independence and democracy. Further more i'd like to experience where my family has come from. But i will share a few stories about travel and soe of the best times ive had traveling.
The moving day finally arrived and really i had nothing packed.. so i packed up all my stuff and loaded it into the trailer and off we went. 2 guys in a red pickup truck with a uhual trailer in tow, a case of beer and tons of punk rock on the stereo. we drove from cincinnati to Texas the first day... hualing ass all the way while i sat in the passenger seat drinking beer and bullshitting about whatever we talked about. I do remember in Arkansas we ran into a little snow.. people in AK cannot drive in snow.. im talking a dusting of snow across the roadways. we were going 70 with a trailer and these people were driving 40 on the highway..
Texas: so we get to texas the first night.. we hualed ass by the way! Honestly i cannot remember where we stayed that night but we did go to a bar that night next to the hotel.. kinda a honky-tonk biker kinda place.. the bartender was really nice! She did get us a few shots on the house, we drank, ate and talked about our move with them. Eventually we made it back to the hotel at close.. got some sleep and was up by 9 to keep traveling on. That day we went to dans brothers house, once again i cant remember what city.. but we did have a great dinner.. drank gin and tonics while playing chess and listening to jazz. very interesting stop on the trip... i got my ass kicked by an 11 year old.
So we leave his brothers house in the morning and head north, to Tempe, AZ.. where we stop for dinner.. oh wait.. on our way there we did stop at a gas station that had one of those peepshows/porn shop attached to it.. well Dan had never been to a Peep Show and i couldnt let my boy go through life without experiencing that! so while dan was in the peep show i was chatting with the owner of the place who actually runs it too. I know i can keep someone inguaged in conversation for a while and when im beer fueled i can just keep going and he ended up giving me $10 worth of tokens for the show.. i think i still have a bunch of them stashed away in a box somewhere.
So TEMPE HERE WE COME! we arrive in Tempe for dinner.. eat at an Applebees and talk to our waiter about what there is to do on that night. He tells us that theres a Karaoke night at a bar down the street.. so we eat and head down to it.. get there and shit... FULL OF HARDCORE OUTLAW BIKERS! well i said fuck it and walked up to the bar, wearing my pompadour, sleeveless cowboy dirt , rolled cuffed levis, and my motorcycle boots.. i had no problems.. so we have a few beers and start singing Karaoke.. first song was "Back in Black"-AC/DC.. this was a crowd pleaser and everyone in the place went nuts! it was kinda weird, i won an audience over that i was kinda scared of.. but i get back to my table where dan is sitting holding our beers up in the air.. everyone patting me on the back as i approach dan.. As soon as i reach our table my eyes lit up like giant spotlights.. a table full i mean FULL of shots! Im thinking " Holy Shit this is going to end badly!" so we start drinking with all these people having fun, sing more ac/dc, some thorogood, and even some elvis! It was awesome to be accepted by some crazy people, even got offered a job and a chance to stay in Tempe.. but nope that wasnt my plan... so last call hits and we pile into the truck.. both of us totally unprepared for driving... but we do it anyways and head towards cali!
On our route from Tempe to Cali.. we stop after an hour and Dan is in NO SHAPE OR FORM TO DRIVE! so we pull over in the dessert.. and man i had to pee.. so i get out the truck and go pee in the desert at 2 am.. it was fucking freezing out too.. I remember the stars were sooo bright and there were so many of them in the sky! i called my mom and im sure if you heard the voicemail i left you wouldnt be able to understand a single word i said. She still says she never got the Voicemail... lies i tell you , lies! well within the timeframe of me going pee.. caling my mom and smoking a cigarette.. dan locks the doors and turn the truck off and passes out... WELL SHIT.. i had to curl up in the bed of the truck and try and sleep in the freezing cold of the arizona desert.. that was terrible but it sobered me up pretty quick..
morning hits and we awake to a blazing sun and keep on trucking all the way to cali... to meet up with Chad our future roommate and bandmate.... make it to his house just in time for dinner... ate.. and passed out right after.. since our trip really was more alcohol driven and even less sleep... but for now im blogged out... ill end up telling more and more travel stories since i do have tons of then and i think most of them are pretty funny or crazy....
until tomorrow...
IM OUT for some bowling!
TRAVEL!! i love to travel! i also move a lot, from city to city, state to state... I think i have actually spent more time in ohio then anywhere else after i turned 18. I have a need to travel and move, either its my gypsy heritage or its just that i need to learn new things, experience new culture and places. I really want to spend a while in eastern europe, im fascinated at the fact that not too long ago alot of the countries made up the soviet union, also alot of them have fought for independence and democracy. Further more i'd like to experience where my family has come from. But i will share a few stories about travel and soe of the best times ive had traveling.
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| First was my move from Cincinnati to Balboa, CA... Kinda of a last minute move.. i was still iffy on moving but i said what the hell and took off.. My parents were really upset that i was moving across the country, but i went anyways. I moved with my friend Dan, who i met when i was 16, he was my boss at the skateshop. He decided to call me and say " hey im moving to cali in 2 weeks, wanna go?" I had to think about it but eventually i said hell yes! |
Texas: so we get to texas the first night.. we hualed ass by the way! Honestly i cannot remember where we stayed that night but we did go to a bar that night next to the hotel.. kinda a honky-tonk biker kinda place.. the bartender was really nice! She did get us a few shots on the house, we drank, ate and talked about our move with them. Eventually we made it back to the hotel at close.. got some sleep and was up by 9 to keep traveling on. That day we went to dans brothers house, once again i cant remember what city.. but we did have a great dinner.. drank gin and tonics while playing chess and listening to jazz. very interesting stop on the trip... i got my ass kicked by an 11 year old.
So we leave his brothers house in the morning and head north, to Tempe, AZ.. where we stop for dinner.. oh wait.. on our way there we did stop at a gas station that had one of those peepshows/porn shop attached to it.. well Dan had never been to a Peep Show and i couldnt let my boy go through life without experiencing that! so while dan was in the peep show i was chatting with the owner of the place who actually runs it too. I know i can keep someone inguaged in conversation for a while and when im beer fueled i can just keep going and he ended up giving me $10 worth of tokens for the show.. i think i still have a bunch of them stashed away in a box somewhere.
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| this is about what the trip was like!! |
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| yeah bikers! |
On our route from Tempe to Cali.. we stop after an hour and Dan is in NO SHAPE OR FORM TO DRIVE! so we pull over in the dessert.. and man i had to pee.. so i get out the truck and go pee in the desert at 2 am.. it was fucking freezing out too.. I remember the stars were sooo bright and there were so many of them in the sky! i called my mom and im sure if you heard the voicemail i left you wouldnt be able to understand a single word i said. She still says she never got the Voicemail... lies i tell you , lies! well within the timeframe of me going pee.. caling my mom and smoking a cigarette.. dan locks the doors and turn the truck off and passes out... WELL SHIT.. i had to curl up in the bed of the truck and try and sleep in the freezing cold of the arizona desert.. that was terrible but it sobered me up pretty quick..
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| this is about what it looked like in the morning |
until tomorrow...
IM OUT for some bowling!
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