well once again im feeling the calm in my soul! there are very few things at help me feel at one within myself and right now im there..
I can go on and on about a lot of things but there really are just a few things that make me feel whole.. and ive come to the conclusion that its getting to that point that i need to move again, i gotta get back to my heart and soul and be at peace and in harmony.
So as for the things that make me feel the harmony flow there are quite a few but i will only dive into the ones that really make the cut! ill start with 5 of them and work from the least to the most... so without further adou ( im not french nor speak french so thats my best spelling)
5: bats :
Now you may ask.. why bats? really? well i think that bats are my totem spirit, i have always been i awe of them. The first week i quite drinking i rode my bike like usual to and from work. well the first night i rode to one of my first AA meetings; i rode home afterwards.. just at dusk too.. and everytime i looked up there was a large pack of bats following me from the meeting all the way home.. they would be behind me, in front and all around ... it was awesome! I still love watching bats, they are a wonderous creature and i respect them 100% . Flying mammals using sonar, catching all the bugs that annoy me and everyone else, watching them fly through the setting sun is still amazing! since spring is here now and that means ill get to start watching them again!
4:driving:
YES DRIVING! i know most people hate to drive, the stress of other drivers, the traffic, the cost of gas... hell i hate the cost of gas but i love to drive, im never in a hurry no matter where im going.. i cruise! if im going to be late oh well! tough shit! i love the freedom of traveling either in my car or on my bike! i am going to include bicycles in the driving aspect as well becuase i have equal joy associated with them. i really wonder how many people actually pay attention to their surroundings while driving or just look at the road... im constantly scanning the area looking always at something new to me.. either seeing houses through the trees int he winter when the foilage is absent or noticing someone painted their barn, or left a feild baren this season... no matter where i go im always looking out and taking in my surroundings, next time you drive maybe instead of getting frustrated take a look at whats out there...
3:the sun:
honestly i dont think i have to explain this one to anyone.. everyone loves the sun.. the warmth from it on your skin, getting a tan so you can join the BBB club... thats Bronze Buff and Bitchin Club! so now ill plead the fifth on it.. you know why the sun is a soul pleaser
2:music:
once again i dont think i have to explain anything about music... if you know me then you understand just how important music is to me!! its my life, my blood, my soul!!
1: surfing:
Ah yes! number one!!!SURFING! yes i know im landlocked AGAIN! and this is why i need to move or find a great job that allows me to travel to the coasts.... hint hint.. someone hook me up! anyways... lets dive into this one.. since its my number one... The Aloha Spirit has always been with me.. i love to have fun, i respect the ocean more then 90% of people i have met.. i have a relationship with Mother Ocean that most of you would never notice or understand... i talk to the ocean when im out in the lineup or sitting on the beach. I have a great deal of respect for older surfers and other surfers. Im passionate about this one, i mean VERY passionate!
To those of you who have never surfed well i dont think i can quite capture the feeling, the Stoke or .. The Aloha Spirit in words for you! but i will try...
Living in Florida was tough.. i didnt have a board.. and i didnt have enough money to buy a new one since i was the only one working and all of that money went to pay bills and couldnt save up enough to buy another 9'3" noserider... my favorite!! so while in florida i did get to surf a few times with a couple people which helped me find myself again!! when i lived in Ca i had a board and surfed every morning at 6 am... id get up at 530.. have a cup of coffee take a hydroxycut put on my wetsuit and walk 100 yards to the water.. yes i lived on the water/beach... thats when i was at one with myself, too bad i didnt quit drinking then.,.. i think i would have stayed there and made my situation better.. but thats not here nor there..
What is it about the ocean, about surfing, about life that makes this so important to me..???? well in my eyes, i cant really explain to you how it feels.. it comes from inside.. i mean the smile i have when writing this isnt just on my face.. its coming from inside! this topic makes me happy.. so what is so special about riding on a peice of wood on water thats traveling at about the same pace as we run? What is so special about the ocean? wheres the fear of sharks? well the fear of sharks i have but at the same time... once i smell that ocean breeze and feel the sand between my toes, it dissappears.. it doesnt exist! i have a healthy relationship with the ocean i respect her, and treat well! if its my time to be atacked by a shark then so be it.. im not going to let that control my surfing.. i surf becuase its me! it makes me mellow, ITS MY CHURCH!
My Church? YES my church! now im guessing but i think of it as the same feeling people who let spirit in at church.
i live my life like i surf, im a longboarder.. its not about fast quick turns or flashy manuevers on the lip.. to me its about style and letting the wave take over and guide you... like life!! the feeling of dropping in is one i will always think of, just that one moment.. i mean really.. its one moment at a time.. its church that happens in less then 5 minutes... i mean one ride on a wave can last 30 seconds.. and that right there is a moment that makes my soul whole! and its just you and the ocean!! ugh i cant express the feeling thats there.. becuase every wave is different! and just think your on that ONE wave.. That ONE wave.. you ride it and it crashes and is done.. and all thats left is you..until the next wave.. its a constant cycle but every wave is different.. so your day surfing is made up of 100s of moments... ill add a video that kinda sums up what im trying to say.. if i can find it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
found it and just watched it.. honestly it brings tears of joy to my eye to hear these guys talk about it just how i feel about it!! Oh my god... i think i need more of this in my life! now copy the link and watch it!!! this film actually is a life changer... even if you have never surfed.. you should watch the movie at any chance you get!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
Now i gotta get to the beach, back to mother ocean, back to life, back to my soul.. without that salt water i feel like my soul is shriveling up... but like a house plant.. it could dry out.. add water.. and Boom.. its back to life!
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