Well today confirmed what i was partially expecting.. 1 million screaming kids, lazy fat parents just sitting around, and workers who look like they would hang themselves from the tubes of the playland area. Yes you guessed it, my day at Chuck E Cheese was terrible! I have decided that i will not take my kids there, if i ever have kids, to be part of such theatrics.. Kids just running wild, parents not paying attention, the attendant at the front lookin more like a bouncer than anything else. Workers wearing ear buds like secret service agents. Pizza that tasted like cardboard and worse then tony's pizza and about 14 different sodas on tap available to all the little fatlings running around.
Now dont get me wrong, when i was a kid Chuck E Cheese was way cooler then it is now. i remember it being a super fun place to be and i was looking forward to that as well. But NO! it would not be that way today, seems like they have revamped the flow of chuck e cheese. More games, A LOT MORE GAMES.. less physical fun and NO BALL PIT! yeah you heard me NO BALL PIT!
well enough bitchin about chuck e cheese...
Tomorrow ill be back on track with my blogging,.. im not feeling to well today so im going to go lay on the couch and relax...
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Busken smiley cookies and a good ole' coffee!! and cybermen?
well good morning, im tired but this coffee and these busken smiley face cookies get me by..
so i was thinking of this blog most of the night last night and most of my morning as well. i was thinking why i was so drawn to watching Dr. Who... well i think ive broken it down a little in my head and i hope it makes sense... If you have never seen the show then i suggest maybe checking it out, that is if you can. ok here we goooo:
So i have figured out that i see myself or at least part of myself in the main character : The Doctor. Why? well i will tell you, for one The Doctor is a traveler, just passing by from time to time, and well frankly it seems ive spent most of post high school life doing just that. He does not have very many friends, well true friends that is; and so do i. Seems like he always has someone along with him, a companion, a friend.. but his are non-romantic relationships as where mine are.. still a common ground. There also seems to be the link that he is very awkward and well frankly i feel like i am too at times. He is very quirky and strange, well hell you already know the answer here, shit you read my blog...
OK and finally he is al;ways out to help someone, something, some planet...and well seems like we have another thing in common. hmmm i think this is why i like watching this show... i know.. BORING.. NERDS... "England... cup'o tea, Mary fuckin Poppins... you know.. England!" i hope someone catches the " Snatch" reference in there..
well enough blabbering and sheer bordem for a waste of blog... but i was just thinking out loud.. no wonder my thougfhts are always so weird... well im off to finish this coffee.. eat these cookies and be on the lookout for Cybermen!!! becuase if they come for you.. youd better Run!
so i was thinking of this blog most of the night last night and most of my morning as well. i was thinking why i was so drawn to watching Dr. Who... well i think ive broken it down a little in my head and i hope it makes sense... If you have never seen the show then i suggest maybe checking it out, that is if you can. ok here we goooo:
So i have figured out that i see myself or at least part of myself in the main character : The Doctor. Why? well i will tell you, for one The Doctor is a traveler, just passing by from time to time, and well frankly it seems ive spent most of post high school life doing just that. He does not have very many friends, well true friends that is; and so do i. Seems like he always has someone along with him, a companion, a friend.. but his are non-romantic relationships as where mine are.. still a common ground. There also seems to be the link that he is very awkward and well frankly i feel like i am too at times. He is very quirky and strange, well hell you already know the answer here, shit you read my blog...
OK and finally he is al;ways out to help someone, something, some planet...and well seems like we have another thing in common. hmmm i think this is why i like watching this show... i know.. BORING.. NERDS... "England... cup'o tea, Mary fuckin Poppins... you know.. England!" i hope someone catches the " Snatch" reference in there..
well enough blabbering and sheer bordem for a waste of blog... but i was just thinking out loud.. no wonder my thougfhts are always so weird... well im off to finish this coffee.. eat these cookies and be on the lookout for Cybermen!!! becuase if they come for you.. youd better Run!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
now where's my TARDIS
so its tuesday and i still havnt deleted facebook or google+ yet. well trueth is i just need to get some of my pics and then ill be wiped clean from the social networks. im not slackin, just been really busy, you know the usual... watchin dr.who, riding bicycles, remodeling a bathroom and trying to enjoy myself. but i have decided that this weekend i will be starting my newest blog... the entertainment blog.. should be interesting. im also buying a new truck this week, one all setup with a 350 v8 and will be putting my 29 roadster body onto the frame.
ugh updating my blog via cell phone is exhuasting.. im off to make a new path and blaze a trail through time... now wheres my TARDIS?
ugh updating my blog via cell phone is exhuasting.. im off to make a new path and blaze a trail through time... now wheres my TARDIS?
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
rain and the undying love for coffee
so once again its raining here in cincinnati, should i expect less for the fall? Nope, i still remember how every fall it rains like crazy and the piles of brown fallen leaves are soaked. i remember as a kid riding my bike through piles of dry leaves and scattering them everywhere, then turning around to go through them agian and skidding as far as possible. I still do the skidding through leaves on my bike, even now. i guess we never truelly grow up! and thats a good warm feeling! :)
Coffee.. yes delicious coffee! got my morning coffee from UDF, no longer do they have the Creme Brule coffee, and only have the french vanilla, and the Pumpkin SPice wont be in until next month :( i dont drink these straight i always do a 3/4 cup of leaded and a 1/4 cup of the flavored coffee, seems to work out best for me!
So no chance of riding my bike today, even though i just took home my brand new track bike yesterday, today ill take home the chiorda and set it in my bike room, which is filling up fast... tried to order my single speed dirt jumper for trails, but low and behold my distributor was out of stock on them... in each of the 6 styles.. well soon i hope they get their numbers back up and i can get one, single speed dirt jumper, disc brake only on the rear and a front suspension fork... nothin fancy.. just fun! i could just take the 29er i have here at work, but id much rather have one of the dj or sj series....
well im gonna sit back enjoy this coffee, dream of leaf skids, wish for better weather and watch the Xavier kids walk by when they should be riding bikes!
Coffee.. yes delicious coffee! got my morning coffee from UDF, no longer do they have the Creme Brule coffee, and only have the french vanilla, and the Pumpkin SPice wont be in until next month :( i dont drink these straight i always do a 3/4 cup of leaded and a 1/4 cup of the flavored coffee, seems to work out best for me!
So no chance of riding my bike today, even though i just took home my brand new track bike yesterday, today ill take home the chiorda and set it in my bike room, which is filling up fast... tried to order my single speed dirt jumper for trails, but low and behold my distributor was out of stock on them... in each of the 6 styles.. well soon i hope they get their numbers back up and i can get one, single speed dirt jumper, disc brake only on the rear and a front suspension fork... nothin fancy.. just fun! i could just take the 29er i have here at work, but id much rather have one of the dj or sj series....
well im gonna sit back enjoy this coffee, dream of leaf skids, wish for better weather and watch the Xavier kids walk by when they should be riding bikes!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
t-minus 6 days and 12 hours and 3 minutes....
wow, its been a while since my last blog and frankly, i missed you! i still have so many stories about my travels, life, and what lies beyond ....
But for today, i have decided that i am going to unplug from facebook! Thats Right! im taking control of my time, my life and no longer going to worry about facebook status updates, event invites, game apps, pokes, friend requests, comments and photo tags!
i will be going off the grid for a while, just wanna free myself up, emotionally, physically and well im ready for a change!
But i will be adding a new blog to my list, " The Quest of the Entertainment Book!" ... i just got a brand spanking new one from my mom and im destined to use every single coupon in the book. I am also going to be rating every place i venture to! some of the coupons i will need fellow travelers to join me on! But i will not be posting it on Facebook since i will no longer have an account, so i will be relying on my friends and followers to post it for me!
Facebook has been good to me, but i feel like its time to break up. time to take control and go off the grid... i was talking with Rob last night over dinner about it.. and its seems to me like us as a whole are moving into a form of control.. we are becoming part of the Grid... my annology for it: This is becoming like Tron! for real!
but until next time , i love you all, and ill see you on the dark side of the moon!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Another day.. another time... wait.. i thought it was same bat time...
hello my old friend,
im sorry its been a while since i wrote, a little too long if you ask me.. im sorry i have been working so hard recently, with no time for anything except work and sleep.. been going nonstop now for a month but soon it will all be over and i can go back to having a life or as some would say a real existance.
So ive been MIA for quite some time now, not showing up on the Face Book as much these days, barely leaving my house when im off work, not mowing my lawn, and barely talking to anyone. But i do know that Elvis is a pretty happy puppy when i get home from work, we hang out for an hour or 2 then im off to work again, then back home for playtime some more then sleep. i do love coming home to him after a long day... he gets so excited even if im gone for 10 minutes. ^-^
well today and this weekend have been good, took off work to fix my car.. which seems lately has been a trend.. i wanted to get out of town for a weekend, but car had to be repaired.. not a whole lot to write about.. i know i know.. my blogs are usually about adventure and murder on the highway.. oh wait i havnt gotten to that story yet... well thats a gift to look forward to....
well until next time i write which will be soon my little droogies! it will be soon!!! im going to leave you with the infamous words of Mikey :
Sunday, May 8, 2011
the great salt lake! another travel adventure memory
So ive been wanting to write this for a week or two now, just been so busy with working that i havnt had the time. so i heard a song by band of horses called: The great salt lake. and it made me think of this:
I remember back when i lived in california, my girlfriend at the time, Amy and i, drove out to her mom's house in the desert for the weekend, actually Temecula. We drove my 65 dodge dart gt, which i bought for $500 and just had to do a tiny bit of wiring to and it ran like a champ! anyways.. this song reminded of driving back from her moms house... we left around 3 pm.. through the desert.. hot! i mean really hot! drving a car with no a/c but i loved it! to me it was beautiful, watching the highway disappear into the heat waves coming off the road ahead of us, the dry dust,sand and rocks everywhere.. looked like i was driving on some sort of alien planet. 90% of the drive back Amy was bitchin about the heat.. and how we shouldve taken her car instead. But i wanted to take mine, give it some good milage since it sat for a while before i got ahold of her. But i pretty much tuned Amy out and just drove, getting lost in my own head while driving through such weird surroundings. Surreal? yes very. We had to stop and grab some grub on the way back and let the car cool down, so we stopped for a bit, she actually appologized for acting the way she was. But she said she did like riding in the car through the desert, at least i wasnt the only one who enjoyed it.
After about an hour, we hopped back into the dart and fired her up, we took our time on the way back, stopped off a few more times to some weird roadside stands for drinks and to check out the view. i wanted to stall time so i could drive through at dusk.. or at least while the sun was setting. I remember the purples and oranges of the sky that night. the cool desert breeze coming through the windows. my elbow propped out the drivers window like a fin of a shark cutting the surface on its way towards its prey. My other arm around amy, smiling and talking about the most random things... her eventually falling asleep against my shoulder on the drive.
the more i think back the more i loved driving that day... all in all it was an eye opener into what this world has, all the terrain, the possibilities of being able to drive to anywhere, adventure, seeking out something or just spending time with someone and enjoying every second of it no matter whats going on. ive been doing that my whole life, enjoying the company of others. I may show it differently but there are small things i do, maybe its the way i look at someone, the way i smile at them, or even the amount of eye contact... i will always remember that day in the desert... it was a great day!! .. i love when random memories pop up and reveal themselves...
I remember back when i lived in california, my girlfriend at the time, Amy and i, drove out to her mom's house in the desert for the weekend, actually Temecula. We drove my 65 dodge dart gt, which i bought for $500 and just had to do a tiny bit of wiring to and it ran like a champ! anyways.. this song reminded of driving back from her moms house... we left around 3 pm.. through the desert.. hot! i mean really hot! drving a car with no a/c but i loved it! to me it was beautiful, watching the highway disappear into the heat waves coming off the road ahead of us, the dry dust,sand and rocks everywhere.. looked like i was driving on some sort of alien planet. 90% of the drive back Amy was bitchin about the heat.. and how we shouldve taken her car instead. But i wanted to take mine, give it some good milage since it sat for a while before i got ahold of her. But i pretty much tuned Amy out and just drove, getting lost in my own head while driving through such weird surroundings. Surreal? yes very. We had to stop and grab some grub on the way back and let the car cool down, so we stopped for a bit, she actually appologized for acting the way she was. But she said she did like riding in the car through the desert, at least i wasnt the only one who enjoyed it.
After about an hour, we hopped back into the dart and fired her up, we took our time on the way back, stopped off a few more times to some weird roadside stands for drinks and to check out the view. i wanted to stall time so i could drive through at dusk.. or at least while the sun was setting. I remember the purples and oranges of the sky that night. the cool desert breeze coming through the windows. my elbow propped out the drivers window like a fin of a shark cutting the surface on its way towards its prey. My other arm around amy, smiling and talking about the most random things... her eventually falling asleep against my shoulder on the drive.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
a ghost in georgia
once again im writing from my phone. so excuse any errors. i do enjoy be able to do this becuase of the versitile nature of a smart phone... but on with it right? ok
" i woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when i didnt know who i was - i was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the crack of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and i looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didnt know who i was for about 15 seconds. I wasnt scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my wholle life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across america, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future, and maybe that's why it happened right there and then, that strange red afternoon. " - Jack Kerouac "on the road" exerpt.
so this is one of my favorite passages from the book On the Road, i mean it fits my experience to a T when i left florida and headed back home to ohio this year. I remember traveling up 75 and just before the sun started setting. Elvis and I stopped off to watch the sunset. Elvis is my dog. for those who do not know that. We walked out into a pecan orchard . drinkin an ice tea. it was a strange feeling watching that sunset. i felt as if i was leaving all the immaturity of life behind, maturing more as i was moving north. i felt as if i was like a ghost just moving between states and between lives. not a real person but just a shell who is here today and just a thought in the wind the next day. i remember a soothing feeling that personally i can say felt like a weird right of passage into adulthood... at 30 years old... i do remember a feeling of comfort though... just a new chapter in life starting.. a new story to be shared. the feeling of watching that sunset i will never forget. it seemed to shape my whole life since ive been back. it had that much of an impact on me... but enough for today i gotta get back to work
until tomorrow keep your eye on the sky and an ear out for trains.. watch the rails becxuas i might be comin your way-
cg
" i woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when i didnt know who i was - i was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the crack of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and i looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didnt know who i was for about 15 seconds. I wasnt scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my wholle life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across america, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future, and maybe that's why it happened right there and then, that strange red afternoon. " - Jack Kerouac "on the road" exerpt.
so this is one of my favorite passages from the book On the Road, i mean it fits my experience to a T when i left florida and headed back home to ohio this year. I remember traveling up 75 and just before the sun started setting. Elvis and I stopped off to watch the sunset. Elvis is my dog. for those who do not know that. We walked out into a pecan orchard . drinkin an ice tea. it was a strange feeling watching that sunset. i felt as if i was leaving all the immaturity of life behind, maturing more as i was moving north. i felt as if i was like a ghost just moving between states and between lives. not a real person but just a shell who is here today and just a thought in the wind the next day. i remember a soothing feeling that personally i can say felt like a weird right of passage into adulthood... at 30 years old... i do remember a feeling of comfort though... just a new chapter in life starting.. a new story to be shared. the feeling of watching that sunset i will never forget. it seemed to shape my whole life since ive been back. it had that much of an impact on me... but enough for today i gotta get back to work
until tomorrow keep your eye on the sky and an ear out for trains.. watch the rails becxuas i might be comin your way-
cg
Sunday, April 24, 2011
on the road.. a reason to stay free!!!
so today im updating my blog from my phone. forgive me for grammatical errors and punctuation. it has also been a while since i have last blogged about travel and my adventures through this life i have led.
i started rereading on the road by jack kerouac and its gotten ne thinkin of how much i can identify with alot of the travel stories and the veiw from travelling. the personal and interpersonal relationships and views of people and places.
it wasnt long ago that i could and did have the nerve and guts to pack up a few things and take off into adventures that i only could dream about. traveling across the country on a whim and the desires of a life that i wanted and read about in books nnewspapers and magazines. to travel like this was exciting. going from city to city just to see what it was about.
the first stop in any city i traveled to was a bar, not just to have a drink but to find a good lookin gal to show me around and see if the city had anything to offer. to see if i could really dig on the scene. man i tell you that some days i wish i could do it all again. just pack up a bag of a few clothes and take off across the country, but now i have my dog. working towards a great career. andf with being sober things have changed.
sure i look back at how careless. carefree . and how absolutely crazy i must have been to people. just to get up and go to find something that i was searching for. im still to this day searching for that. whatever it is. maybe its the spark of life that rushes in when you show up someplace new. knowing not a soul in the town and by the end of the day you already have a few friends that you have met over beers. no thats not it... maybe its the feeing of really letting go of everything thats holding you back to see the world for what it really is and experience life the way it should be lived...free....yes yes my friends that is it..
i remember the day i got my knuckles tattoed very vividly and why i got them done. for those of you who do not know they say stay free on them. i was just about to move back from california to cincinnati and i knew that to me the real freedom of life was just that . that real aspect of travel and giving yourself just enougg room to let go of everything. the space between heart mind body and soul. that loose parallel you have as you awake in the morning into a translucent state of not fully awake and not fully asleep. well at least thats how im going to describe it. i think its time for me to enter that space again. not to leave for good but to get out again and on the road for short bursts and short trips.. this time no beer or booze just good clean fun and adventure. this time to experience another part of america.. this time a forelorn love affair with the national parks and wilderne3ss of america or perhaps the long time traditions of the colonies, perhaps back to mexico for adventures. or even to europe for some hiking and learning the rich cultures of other old worldy times... yes my friends adventure time is alast here.. i encourage everyone to do some adventuring, get out of your usual comfort zone and go out and be free... get out and stay free!
i started rereading on the road by jack kerouac and its gotten ne thinkin of how much i can identify with alot of the travel stories and the veiw from travelling. the personal and interpersonal relationships and views of people and places.
it wasnt long ago that i could and did have the nerve and guts to pack up a few things and take off into adventures that i only could dream about. traveling across the country on a whim and the desires of a life that i wanted and read about in books nnewspapers and magazines. to travel like this was exciting. going from city to city just to see what it was about.
the first stop in any city i traveled to was a bar, not just to have a drink but to find a good lookin gal to show me around and see if the city had anything to offer. to see if i could really dig on the scene. man i tell you that some days i wish i could do it all again. just pack up a bag of a few clothes and take off across the country, but now i have my dog. working towards a great career. andf with being sober things have changed.
sure i look back at how careless. carefree . and how absolutely crazy i must have been to people. just to get up and go to find something that i was searching for. im still to this day searching for that. whatever it is. maybe its the spark of life that rushes in when you show up someplace new. knowing not a soul in the town and by the end of the day you already have a few friends that you have met over beers. no thats not it... maybe its the feeing of really letting go of everything thats holding you back to see the world for what it really is and experience life the way it should be lived...free....yes yes my friends that is it..
i remember the day i got my knuckles tattoed very vividly and why i got them done. for those of you who do not know they say stay free on them. i was just about to move back from california to cincinnati and i knew that to me the real freedom of life was just that . that real aspect of travel and giving yourself just enougg room to let go of everything. the space between heart mind body and soul. that loose parallel you have as you awake in the morning into a translucent state of not fully awake and not fully asleep. well at least thats how im going to describe it. i think its time for me to enter that space again. not to leave for good but to get out again and on the road for short bursts and short trips.. this time no beer or booze just good clean fun and adventure. this time to experience another part of america.. this time a forelorn love affair with the national parks and wilderne3ss of america or perhaps the long time traditions of the colonies, perhaps back to mexico for adventures. or even to europe for some hiking and learning the rich cultures of other old worldy times... yes my friends adventure time is alast here.. i encourage everyone to do some adventuring, get out of your usual comfort zone and go out and be free... get out and stay free!
Monday, April 18, 2011
i just wanna ride my bike and clear my head
so its been a while since ive blogged about anything and today isnt much different.
After hearing about a friend who was shot and killed by cincinnati police early this morning im still in shock! I dont understand a lot of what the police are saying nor do i beleive it! Reports are saying he pulled a knife on the police, but eyewitness saying something else. Knowing him, and hearing these details are soo vastly different that it doesnt make sense so im terribly confused... until i find out the full story im chaulking this one up to police officer error. until tomorrow... ill post more but right now i just wanna ride my bike and clear my head,....
After hearing about a friend who was shot and killed by cincinnati police early this morning im still in shock! I dont understand a lot of what the police are saying nor do i beleive it! Reports are saying he pulled a knife on the police, but eyewitness saying something else. Knowing him, and hearing these details are soo vastly different that it doesnt make sense so im terribly confused... until i find out the full story im chaulking this one up to police officer error. until tomorrow... ill post more but right now i just wanna ride my bike and clear my head,....
Friday, April 8, 2011
friday.. a day that im hyped about!
So i have not posted a blog in a few days.. or even a week.. s lets recap whats happened so far and what youve missed...
So last week i got 2 teeth pulled, my number 16 moler.. and my number 32 wisdom tooth, which had to be cut out and the stitches have almost all finally come out! it was definately a fun time, well at least the first four days of being drugged up were... but now i thought i had dry socket BUT turned out i had a stitch and a knot that for some reason came out and got wedged between my two bottom molers and cuased some serious pain and irretation. Finally i pulled it out last night and i feel a million times better now!!
Ive also decided its time for a total make over on my VW. i was originally going to pick up an audi s4 2.8l biturbo BUT have decided to go with my original plan: 1987 BMW 325is conversion! the golf is going to get a total face lift as well... all the work should take me about a month or less depending on my work schedule. talking right hand drive, rear wheel drive, chopped top and some other special things i have planned for this car.. Why? why not! i love customizing cars, its a passion of mine and i love it.. i love making something look completely different, something jaw dropping.. something that you will look at and go.. Hmm man i love how you did that or How the hell? my favorite thing to hear is : i wish i wouldve done that to my car, thats amazing.. wanna do some work on mine?
So this weekend im going to be finishing up some work for my friend nicoles parents and that should be great! I got my haircut today, which i am super excited about since i have needed one, i also finally got my glasses about a week or so ago.. and its a good thing... hanging with bill, sara, rob and having a good time like usual on friday nights! let the coffee flow and let the exchange of thoughts, ideas and the excursion of life begin!!!!!
IM OUT!!!
see you all next time!
So last week i got 2 teeth pulled, my number 16 moler.. and my number 32 wisdom tooth, which had to be cut out and the stitches have almost all finally come out! it was definately a fun time, well at least the first four days of being drugged up were... but now i thought i had dry socket BUT turned out i had a stitch and a knot that for some reason came out and got wedged between my two bottom molers and cuased some serious pain and irretation. Finally i pulled it out last night and i feel a million times better now!!
Ive also decided its time for a total make over on my VW. i was originally going to pick up an audi s4 2.8l biturbo BUT have decided to go with my original plan: 1987 BMW 325is conversion! the golf is going to get a total face lift as well... all the work should take me about a month or less depending on my work schedule. talking right hand drive, rear wheel drive, chopped top and some other special things i have planned for this car.. Why? why not! i love customizing cars, its a passion of mine and i love it.. i love making something look completely different, something jaw dropping.. something that you will look at and go.. Hmm man i love how you did that or How the hell? my favorite thing to hear is : i wish i wouldve done that to my car, thats amazing.. wanna do some work on mine?
IM OUT!!!see you all next time!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
no matter the outcome, everything dies alone
tonight im doing something different. im writing my blog from my phone.. gonna give it a shot so here goes...
tonight i have been forced to contimplate myself. my outlook on life. my over all self in all forms. i am pretty happy with myself. my friends. my choices and my current life situation. i currently have been doing alot of soul searching to find myself and my center. i have found it1 i have also come to grips with what my most troubled part is. my lonliness.
i am lonely only during a few hours of the day it seems.. coming home from work to a house with my dog and cats.. when i wake up and theres nobody there.. doesnt feel like theres someone i can call to just share great news with or vent to when i need it. doesnt feel like there is someone there who anticipates hearing from me. but maybe there is and i just am too blind to see it.
everything dies alone.. honestly this is what i needed to hear becuase in the end its just you. your thoughts. your actions and your feelings. sometimes i feel as though when i go bed each night i die each time. i mean if you really tthink about it im pretty correct in that thought. you close your eyes and fall asleep.. thats one more day gone.. and all that your left with is your thoughts. emotions and your actions..and of course yourself. but you awaken to a new day . a new life.. a new chance. so maybe i am correct in saying that everynight i die alone. and awaken to do it again the next day.
seems like i have tapped a nerve with this topic. it may be morbid or sound like im being emo. but i have excepted my fate and destiny.. i do not chose my path.. i am guided on this jourbney through life. no matter how long i have. may it be a long while or maybe just for today. i have accepted that i may never know the meaning of life and im ok with that. ive come to the conclusion that if i am honest with everyone. share whats on my mind. speak my feelings and speak from the heart .. that i can rest comfortably at night knowing i didnt let something i wish i wouldve said go unheard.
wow... you may think im really sounded depressed as hell right now but im not.. there are alot of things that i can write about and let flow from my mind to my fingers and onto the keypad tonight.. but this was just what i had on my mind as i started writing. but the title of this is what was really testing my brain to put down...d
should i be afraid to fall asleep each night in fear of death... no becuase i know theres always something better. wether its a new day or a new beginning... in the end it doesnt really matter does it.. becuase everything dies alone
so goodnight.. in the morning im off to get some oral surgery done and i have never been put under so maybe thats another reason why i write about such a topic tonight..but thanks for reading my blog. i never know if anyone likes it or even really reads it since i never hear any feedback about it so.. let me know what you think
thanks and goodnight
tonight i have been forced to contimplate myself. my outlook on life. my over all self in all forms. i am pretty happy with myself. my friends. my choices and my current life situation. i currently have been doing alot of soul searching to find myself and my center. i have found it1 i have also come to grips with what my most troubled part is. my lonliness.
i am lonely only during a few hours of the day it seems.. coming home from work to a house with my dog and cats.. when i wake up and theres nobody there.. doesnt feel like theres someone i can call to just share great news with or vent to when i need it. doesnt feel like there is someone there who anticipates hearing from me. but maybe there is and i just am too blind to see it.
everything dies alone.. honestly this is what i needed to hear becuase in the end its just you. your thoughts. your actions and your feelings. sometimes i feel as though when i go bed each night i die each time. i mean if you really tthink about it im pretty correct in that thought. you close your eyes and fall asleep.. thats one more day gone.. and all that your left with is your thoughts. emotions and your actions..and of course yourself. but you awaken to a new day . a new life.. a new chance. so maybe i am correct in saying that everynight i die alone. and awaken to do it again the next day.
seems like i have tapped a nerve with this topic. it may be morbid or sound like im being emo. but i have excepted my fate and destiny.. i do not chose my path.. i am guided on this jourbney through life. no matter how long i have. may it be a long while or maybe just for today. i have accepted that i may never know the meaning of life and im ok with that. ive come to the conclusion that if i am honest with everyone. share whats on my mind. speak my feelings and speak from the heart .. that i can rest comfortably at night knowing i didnt let something i wish i wouldve said go unheard.
wow... you may think im really sounded depressed as hell right now but im not.. there are alot of things that i can write about and let flow from my mind to my fingers and onto the keypad tonight.. but this was just what i had on my mind as i started writing. but the title of this is what was really testing my brain to put down...d
should i be afraid to fall asleep each night in fear of death... no becuase i know theres always something better. wether its a new day or a new beginning... in the end it doesnt really matter does it.. becuase everything dies alone
so goodnight.. in the morning im off to get some oral surgery done and i have never been put under so maybe thats another reason why i write about such a topic tonight..but thanks for reading my blog. i never know if anyone likes it or even really reads it since i never hear any feedback about it so.. let me know what you think
thanks and goodnight
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
how to sooth my soul....
well once again im feeling the calm in my soul! there are very few things at help me feel at one within myself and right now im there..
I can go on and on about a lot of things but there really are just a few things that make me feel whole.. and ive come to the conclusion that its getting to that point that i need to move again, i gotta get back to my heart and soul and be at peace and in harmony.
So as for the things that make me feel the harmony flow there are quite a few but i will only dive into the ones that really make the cut! ill start with 5 of them and work from the least to the most... so without further adou ( im not french nor speak french so thats my best spelling)
5: bats :
Now you may ask.. why bats? really? well i think that bats are my totem spirit, i have always been i awe of them. The first week i quite drinking i rode my bike like usual to and from work. well the first night i rode to one of my first AA meetings; i rode home afterwards.. just at dusk too.. and everytime i looked up there was a large pack of bats following me from the meeting all the way home.. they would be behind me, in front and all around ... it was awesome! I still love watching bats, they are a wonderous creature and i respect them 100% . Flying mammals using sonar, catching all the bugs that annoy me and everyone else, watching them fly through the setting sun is still amazing! since spring is here now and that means ill get to start watching them again!
4:driving:
YES DRIVING! i know most people hate to drive, the stress of other drivers, the traffic, the cost of gas... hell i hate the cost of gas but i love to drive, im never in a hurry no matter where im going.. i cruise! if im going to be late oh well! tough shit! i love the freedom of traveling either in my car or on my bike! i am going to include bicycles in the driving aspect as well becuase i have equal joy associated with them. i really wonder how many people actually pay attention to their surroundings while driving or just look at the road... im constantly scanning the area looking always at something new to me.. either seeing houses through the trees int he winter when the foilage is absent or noticing someone painted their barn, or left a feild baren this season... no matter where i go im always looking out and taking in my surroundings, next time you drive maybe instead of getting frustrated take a look at whats out there...
3:the sun:
honestly i dont think i have to explain this one to anyone.. everyone loves the sun.. the warmth from it on your skin, getting a tan so you can join the BBB club... thats Bronze Buff and Bitchin Club! so now ill plead the fifth on it.. you know why the sun is a soul pleaser
2:music:
once again i dont think i have to explain anything about music... if you know me then you understand just how important music is to me!! its my life, my blood, my soul!!
1: surfing:
Ah yes! number one!!!SURFING! yes i know im landlocked AGAIN! and this is why i need to move or find a great job that allows me to travel to the coasts.... hint hint.. someone hook me up! anyways... lets dive into this one.. since its my number one... The Aloha Spirit has always been with me.. i love to have fun, i respect the ocean more then 90% of people i have met.. i have a relationship with Mother Ocean that most of you would never notice or understand... i talk to the ocean when im out in the lineup or sitting on the beach. I have a great deal of respect for older surfers and other surfers. Im passionate about this one, i mean VERY passionate!
To those of you who have never surfed well i dont think i can quite capture the feeling, the Stoke or .. The Aloha Spirit in words for you! but i will try...
Living in Florida was tough.. i didnt have a board.. and i didnt have enough money to buy a new one since i was the only one working and all of that money went to pay bills and couldnt save up enough to buy another 9'3" noserider... my favorite!! so while in florida i did get to surf a few times with a couple people which helped me find myself again!! when i lived in Ca i had a board and surfed every morning at 6 am... id get up at 530.. have a cup of coffee take a hydroxycut put on my wetsuit and walk 100 yards to the water.. yes i lived on the water/beach... thats when i was at one with myself, too bad i didnt quit drinking then.,.. i think i would have stayed there and made my situation better.. but thats not here nor there..
What is it about the ocean, about surfing, about life that makes this so important to me..???? well in my eyes, i cant really explain to you how it feels.. it comes from inside.. i mean the smile i have when writing this isnt just on my face.. its coming from inside! this topic makes me happy.. so what is so special about riding on a peice of wood on water thats traveling at about the same pace as we run? What is so special about the ocean? wheres the fear of sharks? well the fear of sharks i have but at the same time... once i smell that ocean breeze and feel the sand between my toes, it dissappears.. it doesnt exist! i have a healthy relationship with the ocean i respect her, and treat well! if its my time to be atacked by a shark then so be it.. im not going to let that control my surfing.. i surf becuase its me! it makes me mellow, ITS MY CHURCH!
My Church? YES my church! now im guessing but i think of it as the same feeling people who let spirit in at church.
i live my life like i surf, im a longboarder.. its not about fast quick turns or flashy manuevers on the lip.. to me its about style and letting the wave take over and guide you... like life!! the feeling of dropping in is one i will always think of, just that one moment.. i mean really.. its one moment at a time.. its church that happens in less then 5 minutes... i mean one ride on a wave can last 30 seconds.. and that right there is a moment that makes my soul whole! and its just you and the ocean!! ugh i cant express the feeling thats there.. becuase every wave is different! and just think your on that ONE wave.. That ONE wave.. you ride it and it crashes and is done.. and all thats left is you..until the next wave.. its a constant cycle but every wave is different.. so your day surfing is made up of 100s of moments... ill add a video that kinda sums up what im trying to say.. if i can find it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
found it and just watched it.. honestly it brings tears of joy to my eye to hear these guys talk about it just how i feel about it!! Oh my god... i think i need more of this in my life! now copy the link and watch it!!! this film actually is a life changer... even if you have never surfed.. you should watch the movie at any chance you get!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
Now i gotta get to the beach, back to mother ocean, back to life, back to my soul.. without that salt water i feel like my soul is shriveling up... but like a house plant.. it could dry out.. add water.. and Boom.. its back to life!
I can go on and on about a lot of things but there really are just a few things that make me feel whole.. and ive come to the conclusion that its getting to that point that i need to move again, i gotta get back to my heart and soul and be at peace and in harmony.
So as for the things that make me feel the harmony flow there are quite a few but i will only dive into the ones that really make the cut! ill start with 5 of them and work from the least to the most... so without further adou ( im not french nor speak french so thats my best spelling)
5: bats :
Now you may ask.. why bats? really? well i think that bats are my totem spirit, i have always been i awe of them. The first week i quite drinking i rode my bike like usual to and from work. well the first night i rode to one of my first AA meetings; i rode home afterwards.. just at dusk too.. and everytime i looked up there was a large pack of bats following me from the meeting all the way home.. they would be behind me, in front and all around ... it was awesome! I still love watching bats, they are a wonderous creature and i respect them 100% . Flying mammals using sonar, catching all the bugs that annoy me and everyone else, watching them fly through the setting sun is still amazing! since spring is here now and that means ill get to start watching them again!
4:driving:
YES DRIVING! i know most people hate to drive, the stress of other drivers, the traffic, the cost of gas... hell i hate the cost of gas but i love to drive, im never in a hurry no matter where im going.. i cruise! if im going to be late oh well! tough shit! i love the freedom of traveling either in my car or on my bike! i am going to include bicycles in the driving aspect as well becuase i have equal joy associated with them. i really wonder how many people actually pay attention to their surroundings while driving or just look at the road... im constantly scanning the area looking always at something new to me.. either seeing houses through the trees int he winter when the foilage is absent or noticing someone painted their barn, or left a feild baren this season... no matter where i go im always looking out and taking in my surroundings, next time you drive maybe instead of getting frustrated take a look at whats out there...
3:the sun:
honestly i dont think i have to explain this one to anyone.. everyone loves the sun.. the warmth from it on your skin, getting a tan so you can join the BBB club... thats Bronze Buff and Bitchin Club! so now ill plead the fifth on it.. you know why the sun is a soul pleaser
2:music:
once again i dont think i have to explain anything about music... if you know me then you understand just how important music is to me!! its my life, my blood, my soul!!
1: surfing:
Ah yes! number one!!!SURFING! yes i know im landlocked AGAIN! and this is why i need to move or find a great job that allows me to travel to the coasts.... hint hint.. someone hook me up! anyways... lets dive into this one.. since its my number one... The Aloha Spirit has always been with me.. i love to have fun, i respect the ocean more then 90% of people i have met.. i have a relationship with Mother Ocean that most of you would never notice or understand... i talk to the ocean when im out in the lineup or sitting on the beach. I have a great deal of respect for older surfers and other surfers. Im passionate about this one, i mean VERY passionate!
To those of you who have never surfed well i dont think i can quite capture the feeling, the Stoke or .. The Aloha Spirit in words for you! but i will try...
Living in Florida was tough.. i didnt have a board.. and i didnt have enough money to buy a new one since i was the only one working and all of that money went to pay bills and couldnt save up enough to buy another 9'3" noserider... my favorite!! so while in florida i did get to surf a few times with a couple people which helped me find myself again!! when i lived in Ca i had a board and surfed every morning at 6 am... id get up at 530.. have a cup of coffee take a hydroxycut put on my wetsuit and walk 100 yards to the water.. yes i lived on the water/beach... thats when i was at one with myself, too bad i didnt quit drinking then.,.. i think i would have stayed there and made my situation better.. but thats not here nor there..
What is it about the ocean, about surfing, about life that makes this so important to me..???? well in my eyes, i cant really explain to you how it feels.. it comes from inside.. i mean the smile i have when writing this isnt just on my face.. its coming from inside! this topic makes me happy.. so what is so special about riding on a peice of wood on water thats traveling at about the same pace as we run? What is so special about the ocean? wheres the fear of sharks? well the fear of sharks i have but at the same time... once i smell that ocean breeze and feel the sand between my toes, it dissappears.. it doesnt exist! i have a healthy relationship with the ocean i respect her, and treat well! if its my time to be atacked by a shark then so be it.. im not going to let that control my surfing.. i surf becuase its me! it makes me mellow, ITS MY CHURCH!
My Church? YES my church! now im guessing but i think of it as the same feeling people who let spirit in at church.
i live my life like i surf, im a longboarder.. its not about fast quick turns or flashy manuevers on the lip.. to me its about style and letting the wave take over and guide you... like life!! the feeling of dropping in is one i will always think of, just that one moment.. i mean really.. its one moment at a time.. its church that happens in less then 5 minutes... i mean one ride on a wave can last 30 seconds.. and that right there is a moment that makes my soul whole! and its just you and the ocean!! ugh i cant express the feeling thats there.. becuase every wave is different! and just think your on that ONE wave.. That ONE wave.. you ride it and it crashes and is done.. and all thats left is you..until the next wave.. its a constant cycle but every wave is different.. so your day surfing is made up of 100s of moments... ill add a video that kinda sums up what im trying to say.. if i can find it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
found it and just watched it.. honestly it brings tears of joy to my eye to hear these guys talk about it just how i feel about it!! Oh my god... i think i need more of this in my life! now copy the link and watch it!!! this film actually is a life changer... even if you have never surfed.. you should watch the movie at any chance you get!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEhSc48Y-7Q
Now i gotta get to the beach, back to mother ocean, back to life, back to my soul.. without that salt water i feel like my soul is shriveling up... but like a house plant.. it could dry out.. add water.. and Boom.. its back to life!
Monday, March 21, 2011
the most relaxed state is: me!
Get outside and enjoy the day! first day of spring too so leave work early and get outside!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Do or Do Not, there is no TRY
well its friday and that means only one thing: the weekend! Now this weekend is different then any of the others.. im going to do something BIG this weekend.. what is it ? well i thought you would ask that! |
| this guy wont find me! |
I know next weekend i may go camping with the Reeves.. my best friends and their two kids who to them i am Uncle Casey! But this weekend i may not update anything.. just forget all about technology and leave it all at home..
Today has been a good day up until the rain started falling.. that was a killer on my mood and my energy! Yesterday i hit 88, today im going back .. way back.. im...... outta heeerrrrrreeeeeee.......
see ya on monday! :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Time Travel and my weekend.. lets hit 88
So its been about a week since my last blog.. and i guess its high time i fill you in on my last week/weekend... today we are going to hit 88 mph and go back... back to the Future!
So let's recap starting with friday:
Friday i traveled up to dayton/ fairborn to links and kinks bike shop, that my buddy Bryan owns. We worked on a bike for the Spring Break Bike Polo Tournament in Lexington. Took almost all day to powder coat the frame and fork, find a headset that would work... also picked up a new bike for parts and the wheels off it! So friday night i tuned up the bike and worked on packing everything for the weekend.. The frame is Halloween Metallic ( a high flake orange) and the forks are Tuscan Black (flat black)
Saturday, so up at 7 am.. pack the car with my bike, bag and the dog.. drove over to my moms to drop off Elvis for the day.. and take off to Lexington for a Huge Weekend!!! The drive was great, sunny, and didnt seem to take as long as i thought it would.. maybe becuase i was excited and i was jammin out all the way down I-75.. Arrive in Lexington at the polo courts , which by the way are AMAZING, around 11 am.. i was the 3rd one there... borrowed a mallot from someone and started warming up. I have not played polo in about 3 to 3.5 years.. and i was rusty, i mean REALLY rusty! I decided to run my bike Fixed gear, no brake, Big Mistake! shouldve kept it with a brake and freewheel.. i would have been better playing and had more fun... also wish i wouldve put a more comfortable saddle on the bike.... anyways.. after about 9 hours of polo with people from all over the USA... pittsburg, atlanta, chicago, ann arbor, cleveland, cincinnati, st.louis, new york.. it was a huge event.. roughly 60 people!! well by the end of the day i was so tired, sore and ready for a massage and a hot tub! Decided to head back to cincy to change parts out on my bike for the big tourney on sunday... this was to be my undoing... and most likely one of the most costly things to do.. Heading back from lexington... on 75n i knew to avoid potholes... so i stayed to the left.. but after about 40 minutes of driving i was pretty damn hungry.. after not really eating all day.. i decided to change lanes.. as soon as my front passenger wheel started over the dotted line.. BOOM! huge pothole.. and instantly knew i was fucked!
So sitting on the side of the road i called roadside assistance since i dont have a jack in my car... well while waiting i looked at the damage: Split Tire, Bent Rim, Blown Strut, fucked control arm... and all my bushings needed replaced... not a happy camper by this time... but finally the BIG good ole boy came and changed my wheel for me... and hobbled back home.. after leaving lexington at 9:30 and arriving back to my house at 1:00am ... made for a long day and knowing i wouldnt make the tournament the next day was really bumming me out...
Sunday.. woke up not feeling good... drank 2 gatorades and seemed like i was just dehydrated and that was a relief! didnt really do much either that day..
the rest of my week has been pretty tame.. nothing really exciting going on!
But today is St.Patricks Day.. i used to love this holiday!i mean what other reason is there to get blatently drunk and act a fool? besides Oktoberfest, this is the party day of the year... oh yeah New Years too... But this year its different.. 1: i dont drink anymore 2: im not irish 3: im not really excited about it,
I mean tonight is going to be fun just watching all the drunk ass people on Mainstrasse acting a fool, puking on themselves, getting aressted for pissing in the streets, fighting , and other stuff.. I love watching people when you know something is going to happen! Im pretty excited to see how many people have green puke all over their shirts, pants, shoes.. and how many of them are getting carried out by their equally drunk friends... hhahaha this is actually making me excited for St.Pattys day..
Well im gonna hop back into my Delorean and hit 88.... becuase i gotta get back in time...... gotta get back in time ( huey lewis and the news does that song for those who dont know that, he also is the judge at the tryouts for the high school bands in the gymnasium that marty's band trys out for)
Later!
So let's recap starting with friday:
Friday i traveled up to dayton/ fairborn to links and kinks bike shop, that my buddy Bryan owns. We worked on a bike for the Spring Break Bike Polo Tournament in Lexington. Took almost all day to powder coat the frame and fork, find a headset that would work... also picked up a new bike for parts and the wheels off it! So friday night i tuned up the bike and worked on packing everything for the weekend.. The frame is Halloween Metallic ( a high flake orange) and the forks are Tuscan Black (flat black)
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| This dude changed my tire |
So sitting on the side of the road i called roadside assistance since i dont have a jack in my car... well while waiting i looked at the damage: Split Tire, Bent Rim, Blown Strut, fucked control arm... and all my bushings needed replaced... not a happy camper by this time... but finally the BIG good ole boy came and changed my wheel for me... and hobbled back home.. after leaving lexington at 9:30 and arriving back to my house at 1:00am ... made for a long day and knowing i wouldnt make the tournament the next day was really bumming me out...
Sunday.. woke up not feeling good... drank 2 gatorades and seemed like i was just dehydrated and that was a relief! didnt really do much either that day..the rest of my week has been pretty tame.. nothing really exciting going on!
But today is St.Patricks Day.. i used to love this holiday!i mean what other reason is there to get blatently drunk and act a fool? besides Oktoberfest, this is the party day of the year... oh yeah New Years too... But this year its different.. 1: i dont drink anymore 2: im not irish 3: im not really excited about it,
Well im gonna hop back into my Delorean and hit 88.... becuase i gotta get back in time...... gotta get back in time ( huey lewis and the news does that song for those who dont know that, he also is the judge at the tryouts for the high school bands in the gymnasium that marty's band trys out for)
Later!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
The adventures of a Shrimp Hunter
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| way to high maintenance to be on my crew! |
But i wonder if theres a big market for naturally caught shrimp? i mean there is a huge trend going on with the Organic market... so it would be "Captain Casey's Organic Naturally Caught Shrimp" ... and i would rule the super markets with an Iron Fist! I wonder what kind of ship i would need? a scooner? or a pirate ship? yeah a pirate ship would work.. i have a feeling it would be a battle against other fisherman.. but my crew would be ruthless and fearless...
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| maybe these guys, if we were searching for butts to plunder |
Monday, March 7, 2011
My dog's a Terrorist and i need a Bean Bag Chair!!
So ive come to terms with my insomnia... not that its a major problem.. my brain wont shut off sometimes.
So ive had an emotional weekend, the weather pissing me off, my house having issues as well, and well then theres quitting smoking too! All of which seems to culminate and seed into my brain and interrupt my sleep patterns. I get tired but im too anxious to fall asleep, so as i lay there trying to sleep my brain goes into full on attack mode! Sleep? no! Dreams? got em but what happened to them? Over time im noticing a major change in myself.. my dependancy on other people? maybe... or maybe im just bored and when i say bored.. i mean BORED! This weather has got to go!!! i need bright sunshine and temps above 60 to make me happy.. so why not move back to Fl or someplace warm? I have thought about it, but honestly im not ready to make another move just yet.. gotta see where "this thing" takes me... anyways...
So i think i need a bean bag chair... since thursday ive logged 433 minutes playing video games and my ass hurts form sitting on my floor.. why do i sit on the floor? i dont know.. ive always done it that way. So im thinking of getting one of those huge giant ones that my best friends have at their house for their kids! they are pretty comfy and im sure my dog would end up using it as his bed instead of trying to takeover mine!
Sleeping while theres a terrorist trying to inch out every possible area on the bed to sleep is very hard to do! Yes i have deemed my dog as a bed terrorist! Invading all possible areas that in which i want my legs and body in. Conquering all corners of the bed until finally i am pushed out and the only thing left to do is drop a nuke on the bed or napalm. He tries to wrestle the blankets away from me like they are camo covering up his secret base and military weapons he has been stock piling over the years. I dont worry so much about Bin Laden and Al Queda... more worried about Osama Bin Elvis and his trusty 2 kitty cat sidekicks.. tryin to takeover the bed! This is another reason i cant sleep.. cant get comfortable.. and i know everyone says.. just kick im off or keep him out of your room at night.. i would except he has super high abandonment issues! But until the day coems when i can get it off the bed.. i guess im going to keep fighting terrorism one night at a time!
But enough about sleep.. today is a beautiful day and im going to enjoy it as much as i possibly can!! maybe take the bike out for a ride around sharonville... other then that lets hope that the sun decides to stick around... i need it more and more since this weather is driving me crazy.. like having cabin fever and i live alone so thats a major threat to the american population.. think " massacre on Ohio Ave.. story at 11!!! "
So mother Nature , do your stuff!! bring that warm spring and lets do this!!
So ive had an emotional weekend, the weather pissing me off, my house having issues as well, and well then theres quitting smoking too! All of which seems to culminate and seed into my brain and interrupt my sleep patterns. I get tired but im too anxious to fall asleep, so as i lay there trying to sleep my brain goes into full on attack mode! Sleep? no! Dreams? got em but what happened to them? Over time im noticing a major change in myself.. my dependancy on other people? maybe... or maybe im just bored and when i say bored.. i mean BORED! This weather has got to go!!! i need bright sunshine and temps above 60 to make me happy.. so why not move back to Fl or someplace warm? I have thought about it, but honestly im not ready to make another move just yet.. gotta see where "this thing" takes me... anyways...
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| ill take the Chair AND the lady with it!! |
Sleeping while theres a terrorist trying to inch out every possible area on the bed to sleep is very hard to do! Yes i have deemed my dog as a bed terrorist! Invading all possible areas that in which i want my legs and body in. Conquering all corners of the bed until finally i am pushed out and the only thing left to do is drop a nuke on the bed or napalm. He tries to wrestle the blankets away from me like they are camo covering up his secret base and military weapons he has been stock piling over the years. I dont worry so much about Bin Laden and Al Queda... more worried about Osama Bin Elvis and his trusty 2 kitty cat sidekicks.. tryin to takeover the bed! This is another reason i cant sleep.. cant get comfortable.. and i know everyone says.. just kick im off or keep him out of your room at night.. i would except he has super high abandonment issues! But until the day coems when i can get it off the bed.. i guess im going to keep fighting terrorism one night at a time!
But enough about sleep.. today is a beautiful day and im going to enjoy it as much as i possibly can!! maybe take the bike out for a ride around sharonville... other then that lets hope that the sun decides to stick around... i need it more and more since this weather is driving me crazy.. like having cabin fever and i live alone so thats a major threat to the american population.. think " massacre on Ohio Ave.. story at 11!!! "
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| about what i feel like sometimes! |
Friday, March 4, 2011
Who Pissed in the Ball Pit?
So after being back in Cincy for about a month now, i have finally gotten everything put away and everything lookin good! I went out and bought a few shelving systems last night, got the rest of my shelves put up, and put all my dvds, video games, and records put up and stored properly.. took me a few hours to get everything the way i wanted it. I also built a new lamp/bike rack on my wall. I think it looks awesome!
Ok enough of that... its Friday and im ready for the weekend! It does suck that its raining today, kinda made my day a little depressing. But shit i cant be depressed.. what would i be depressed about anyway? NOTHING! Im living the dream and living large. Im pretty damn happy about everything and if anything i might be a little bummed about the weather. Thats it...
Well tomorrow ill be heading to dayton to party oin down at Chuck E. Cheese for my neices 2nd birthday! gonna be awesome and that means.. Pizza, Games, and peeing in the ball pit!! I mean seriously i wonder how many kids pee in the ball pit? why not just pee on a slide? its more entertaining to pee on a slide... i know from experience.. so far thats all i have planned for my weekend...I know, I know... not as exciting as my other blogs but its rainy and im not in the writing mood! But stay tuned because tomorrow i may be reporting LIVE from the Piss filled Ball Pit of Chuck E. Cheese...
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Global Boombox.. WTF is that???
So once again im talking about traveling, something i am passionate about! For years i have wanted to have my own show on Travel channel, or discovery channel but just recently i realized that i would be much more suited for VH1 or something along those lines. My show i want to propose to a major television network would just be me to different countries to experience their music, the culture around the music and to learn some of it myself. Interesting? i think so. Theres really only a few things that rival my passion for music... those would be travel, adventure, and fun!
Imagine me, in spain.. learning more about flamenco, yes it should come natural to me..since i can play a little flamenco and mariachi style guitar.. but to experience it the way its ment to be.. to live amongst the people and musicians for a bit and really get a feel for what drives the music!
Music has always reflected to me the struggles of people.. without the struggle music really has no meaning. Look at Punk.. through disorder and rebellion came a form of music that was so angry, violent, and hell overly political at times. Or take a look at swing... highly popular throughout the great depression.. and it has a sound of joy, fun and a sense of wellbeing. Even though the times were the hardest for most americans, the music was a release. a way to forget about the daily hardships and be free for just even 5 minutes.. That is what music is to me!
Music has always been there for me, thats why i am going to school right now to get my degree in Music Business. Time for me to give back a little of what i have taken so much of. I think alot of people take for granted all the music they hear, i know sometimes i do. Im really, really not a fan of commercialized forms of music, but it does have its place. Im more of a fan of raw, original, and underground music. To me, its more Real.. and genuine.
Traveling to experience music would definately be my dream job!! combining the two aspects of my life into one career.. now thats how i want to live! It would be the most rewarding career for myself! I think to me that im more fascinated by seeing how music is effecting other countries. As for an example, take Isreal and a lot of the middle east ; Punk Rock is just really starting to take of there! and not just a little bit.. im talking HUGE!!! Isreal, Iraq, Iran, and Egypt are pumping out tons of punk bands.. why? becuase of the struggle! They finally have a chance to really voice their opinions and views since their governments are going through such radical changes. I honestly wish i could have been there to see it just break through and grab hold of the youth, just to see raw energy and mayhem of music unleashed! I can only imagine what those first few gigs would be like!! must have been one of the greatest experiences.. yes i can romanticize punk rock shows.. being the first few to really unleash pent up aggression and raw emotions. a lot like early New York at CBGB's or in London watching the Clash really bring it down!
Im not too sure what i would call my show.. perhaps something like " World Beat" or something generic like that... maybe something else.. like Global Boombox.. yeah i like that better! So if you know anyone in the "BIZ" that would wanna make my dream a reality.. send em my way... im available to sit down with some big wigs.. talk music and travel.. plot out a few places to go to experience culture, music, and the people who inspire us everyday! I think i got alot of my attitudes and thinking of music from an old friend who is no longer with us, talking with him about global music and what it really can offer us as people was the greatest thing, I learned alot from Joe and i carry that with me everyday.. Sometimes finding some of the weirdest music to listen to can be surprisingly good for your soul.. so today go out and find something weird.. and really listen to it.. dont just hear it, LISTEN!! it may actually open your eyes and soul up to a new place..
Imagine me, in spain.. learning more about flamenco, yes it should come natural to me..since i can play a little flamenco and mariachi style guitar.. but to experience it the way its ment to be.. to live amongst the people and musicians for a bit and really get a feel for what drives the music!Music has always reflected to me the struggles of people.. without the struggle music really has no meaning. Look at Punk.. through disorder and rebellion came a form of music that was so angry, violent, and hell overly political at times. Or take a look at swing... highly popular throughout the great depression.. and it has a sound of joy, fun and a sense of wellbeing. Even though the times were the hardest for most americans, the music was a release. a way to forget about the daily hardships and be free for just even 5 minutes.. That is what music is to me!
Music has always been there for me, thats why i am going to school right now to get my degree in Music Business. Time for me to give back a little of what i have taken so much of. I think alot of people take for granted all the music they hear, i know sometimes i do. Im really, really not a fan of commercialized forms of music, but it does have its place. Im more of a fan of raw, original, and underground music. To me, its more Real.. and genuine.
Traveling to experience music would definately be my dream job!! combining the two aspects of my life into one career.. now thats how i want to live! It would be the most rewarding career for myself! I think to me that im more fascinated by seeing how music is effecting other countries. As for an example, take Isreal and a lot of the middle east ; Punk Rock is just really starting to take of there! and not just a little bit.. im talking HUGE!!! Isreal, Iraq, Iran, and Egypt are pumping out tons of punk bands.. why? becuase of the struggle! They finally have a chance to really voice their opinions and views since their governments are going through such radical changes. I honestly wish i could have been there to see it just break through and grab hold of the youth, just to see raw energy and mayhem of music unleashed! I can only imagine what those first few gigs would be like!! must have been one of the greatest experiences.. yes i can romanticize punk rock shows.. being the first few to really unleash pent up aggression and raw emotions. a lot like early New York at CBGB's or in London watching the Clash really bring it down! |
| the man, the myth, the legand!! Joe! |
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Travel, Travel TRAVEL!!!
Well on to my second blog and today i decided to share a few things that i think are pretty interesting..
TRAVEL!! i love to travel! i also move a lot, from city to city, state to state... I think i have actually spent more time in ohio then anywhere else after i turned 18. I have a need to travel and move, either its my gypsy heritage or its just that i need to learn new things, experience new culture and places. I really want to spend a while in eastern europe, im fascinated at the fact that not too long ago alot of the countries made up the soviet union, also alot of them have fought for independence and democracy. Further more i'd like to experience where my family has come from. But i will share a few stories about travel and soe of the best times ive had traveling.
The moving day finally arrived and really i had nothing packed.. so i packed up all my stuff and loaded it into the trailer and off we went. 2 guys in a red pickup truck with a uhual trailer in tow, a case of beer and tons of punk rock on the stereo. we drove from cincinnati to Texas the first day... hualing ass all the way while i sat in the passenger seat drinking beer and bullshitting about whatever we talked about. I do remember in Arkansas we ran into a little snow.. people in AK cannot drive in snow.. im talking a dusting of snow across the roadways. we were going 70 with a trailer and these people were driving 40 on the highway..
Texas: so we get to texas the first night.. we hualed ass by the way! Honestly i cannot remember where we stayed that night but we did go to a bar that night next to the hotel.. kinda a honky-tonk biker kinda place.. the bartender was really nice! She did get us a few shots on the house, we drank, ate and talked about our move with them. Eventually we made it back to the hotel at close.. got some sleep and was up by 9 to keep traveling on. That day we went to dans brothers house, once again i cant remember what city.. but we did have a great dinner.. drank gin and tonics while playing chess and listening to jazz. very interesting stop on the trip... i got my ass kicked by an 11 year old.
So we leave his brothers house in the morning and head north, to Tempe, AZ.. where we stop for dinner.. oh wait.. on our way there we did stop at a gas station that had one of those peepshows/porn shop attached to it.. well Dan had never been to a Peep Show and i couldnt let my boy go through life without experiencing that! so while dan was in the peep show i was chatting with the owner of the place who actually runs it too. I know i can keep someone inguaged in conversation for a while and when im beer fueled i can just keep going and he ended up giving me $10 worth of tokens for the show.. i think i still have a bunch of them stashed away in a box somewhere.
So TEMPE HERE WE COME! we arrive in Tempe for dinner.. eat at an Applebees and talk to our waiter about what there is to do on that night. He tells us that theres a Karaoke night at a bar down the street.. so we eat and head down to it.. get there and shit... FULL OF HARDCORE OUTLAW BIKERS! well i said fuck it and walked up to the bar, wearing my pompadour, sleeveless cowboy dirt , rolled cuffed levis, and my motorcycle boots.. i had no problems.. so we have a few beers and start singing Karaoke.. first song was "Back in Black"-AC/DC.. this was a crowd pleaser and everyone in the place went nuts! it was kinda weird, i won an audience over that i was kinda scared of.. but i get back to my table where dan is sitting holding our beers up in the air.. everyone patting me on the back as i approach dan.. As soon as i reach our table my eyes lit up like giant spotlights.. a table full i mean FULL of shots! Im thinking " Holy Shit this is going to end badly!" so we start drinking with all these people having fun, sing more ac/dc, some thorogood, and even some elvis! It was awesome to be accepted by some crazy people, even got offered a job and a chance to stay in Tempe.. but nope that wasnt my plan... so last call hits and we pile into the truck.. both of us totally unprepared for driving... but we do it anyways and head towards cali!
On our route from Tempe to Cali.. we stop after an hour and Dan is in NO SHAPE OR FORM TO DRIVE! so we pull over in the dessert.. and man i had to pee.. so i get out the truck and go pee in the desert at 2 am.. it was fucking freezing out too.. I remember the stars were sooo bright and there were so many of them in the sky! i called my mom and im sure if you heard the voicemail i left you wouldnt be able to understand a single word i said. She still says she never got the Voicemail... lies i tell you , lies! well within the timeframe of me going pee.. caling my mom and smoking a cigarette.. dan locks the doors and turn the truck off and passes out... WELL SHIT.. i had to curl up in the bed of the truck and try and sleep in the freezing cold of the arizona desert.. that was terrible but it sobered me up pretty quick..
morning hits and we awake to a blazing sun and keep on trucking all the way to cali... to meet up with Chad our future roommate and bandmate.... make it to his house just in time for dinner... ate.. and passed out right after.. since our trip really was more alcohol driven and even less sleep... but for now im blogged out... ill end up telling more and more travel stories since i do have tons of then and i think most of them are pretty funny or crazy....
until tomorrow...
IM OUT for some bowling!
TRAVEL!! i love to travel! i also move a lot, from city to city, state to state... I think i have actually spent more time in ohio then anywhere else after i turned 18. I have a need to travel and move, either its my gypsy heritage or its just that i need to learn new things, experience new culture and places. I really want to spend a while in eastern europe, im fascinated at the fact that not too long ago alot of the countries made up the soviet union, also alot of them have fought for independence and democracy. Further more i'd like to experience where my family has come from. But i will share a few stories about travel and soe of the best times ive had traveling.
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| First was my move from Cincinnati to Balboa, CA... Kinda of a last minute move.. i was still iffy on moving but i said what the hell and took off.. My parents were really upset that i was moving across the country, but i went anyways. I moved with my friend Dan, who i met when i was 16, he was my boss at the skateshop. He decided to call me and say " hey im moving to cali in 2 weeks, wanna go?" I had to think about it but eventually i said hell yes! |
Texas: so we get to texas the first night.. we hualed ass by the way! Honestly i cannot remember where we stayed that night but we did go to a bar that night next to the hotel.. kinda a honky-tonk biker kinda place.. the bartender was really nice! She did get us a few shots on the house, we drank, ate and talked about our move with them. Eventually we made it back to the hotel at close.. got some sleep and was up by 9 to keep traveling on. That day we went to dans brothers house, once again i cant remember what city.. but we did have a great dinner.. drank gin and tonics while playing chess and listening to jazz. very interesting stop on the trip... i got my ass kicked by an 11 year old.
So we leave his brothers house in the morning and head north, to Tempe, AZ.. where we stop for dinner.. oh wait.. on our way there we did stop at a gas station that had one of those peepshows/porn shop attached to it.. well Dan had never been to a Peep Show and i couldnt let my boy go through life without experiencing that! so while dan was in the peep show i was chatting with the owner of the place who actually runs it too. I know i can keep someone inguaged in conversation for a while and when im beer fueled i can just keep going and he ended up giving me $10 worth of tokens for the show.. i think i still have a bunch of them stashed away in a box somewhere.
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| this is about what the trip was like!! |
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| yeah bikers! |
On our route from Tempe to Cali.. we stop after an hour and Dan is in NO SHAPE OR FORM TO DRIVE! so we pull over in the dessert.. and man i had to pee.. so i get out the truck and go pee in the desert at 2 am.. it was fucking freezing out too.. I remember the stars were sooo bright and there were so many of them in the sky! i called my mom and im sure if you heard the voicemail i left you wouldnt be able to understand a single word i said. She still says she never got the Voicemail... lies i tell you , lies! well within the timeframe of me going pee.. caling my mom and smoking a cigarette.. dan locks the doors and turn the truck off and passes out... WELL SHIT.. i had to curl up in the bed of the truck and try and sleep in the freezing cold of the arizona desert.. that was terrible but it sobered me up pretty quick..
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| this is about what it looked like in the morning |
until tomorrow...
IM OUT for some bowling!
Monday, February 28, 2011
I'm a Fuckin Adult!
Well after taking advice from a few friends i decided to start blogging. So for my first blog i have decided to kinda outline how i think my blog posts will be about and set-up. Im thinking they are going to be pretty much like a live journal, or a rough outline of my days and adventures.. add in a few emotional thoughts and things from the heart. I have been Sober now for 6 months and 12 days, moved back to Cincinnati 28 days ago, and still find myself searching for new adventure. Today starts a new adventure: Blogging!
I have thought about doing this more than once, and now i think i am ready. I'm not too concerned about how many people read my blog or even comment or like it. This is more for me, and its a way to express alot of things that are built up in me, and share what adventures i conquer.
Things seem to be running pretty well since my move back and things are a ton better since i started my sobriety. I have lost some friends along the way, made new ones too. I have found that everyday, my day gets better from just one phone call, or one text! That usually sets my mood and emotions on high each and every day. Some days it takes longer for that to happen like yesterday and today, but im ok with that.
I get a chance to do a lot of self realization and a lot of self inventory on the daily. So far i love what i see, i love the guy i have become, i love where i am headed and whose going with me! Its hard to imagine how my life would be right now had i kept drinking, but why worry about that? Its not progressive and it doesn't help motivate me to keep on going with the crusade i started over 6 months ago! Crusade ? sure, its my personal crusade against my mind and body.. to become a better person.. to become ME!
I have noticed a lot of changes in myself and i have seem a lot of my faults melt away just by challenging them and conquering those. Daily Adventures help to challenge my mind and spirit, keep more looking forward to the next day.. that next glimpse of happiness is just 1 second away! why live for the past? you can change it, you can only dwell on it... so what? yeah i might have fucked up a lot of things in the past.. but so what? dwelling on it only brings negativity, not positivity.. you can only live for now! So i embrace my time here and live it to my best ability.. weather its sharing my heart, my love with someone. meeting new friends, running amok and having fun doing it, or looking like a crazy person because i wanna let lose and beat a fence with a stick like i'm sword fighting.. so what.. i'm living for the moment.. because soon that moment will be gone, but there comes more and more moments ahead, and moments i want to share with a special someone...
But i do know now since i have been going through these changes and since my sobriety i have come to one conclusion everyday that i know i am happy about and can live with: I'm a Fuckin Adult!
now to figure out how to add photos and pics to this .......
I have thought about doing this more than once, and now i think i am ready. I'm not too concerned about how many people read my blog or even comment or like it. This is more for me, and its a way to express alot of things that are built up in me, and share what adventures i conquer.
Things seem to be running pretty well since my move back and things are a ton better since i started my sobriety. I have lost some friends along the way, made new ones too. I have found that everyday, my day gets better from just one phone call, or one text! That usually sets my mood and emotions on high each and every day. Some days it takes longer for that to happen like yesterday and today, but im ok with that.
I get a chance to do a lot of self realization and a lot of self inventory on the daily. So far i love what i see, i love the guy i have become, i love where i am headed and whose going with me! Its hard to imagine how my life would be right now had i kept drinking, but why worry about that? Its not progressive and it doesn't help motivate me to keep on going with the crusade i started over 6 months ago! Crusade ? sure, its my personal crusade against my mind and body.. to become a better person.. to become ME!
I have noticed a lot of changes in myself and i have seem a lot of my faults melt away just by challenging them and conquering those. Daily Adventures help to challenge my mind and spirit, keep more looking forward to the next day.. that next glimpse of happiness is just 1 second away! why live for the past? you can change it, you can only dwell on it... so what? yeah i might have fucked up a lot of things in the past.. but so what? dwelling on it only brings negativity, not positivity.. you can only live for now! So i embrace my time here and live it to my best ability.. weather its sharing my heart, my love with someone. meeting new friends, running amok and having fun doing it, or looking like a crazy person because i wanna let lose and beat a fence with a stick like i'm sword fighting.. so what.. i'm living for the moment.. because soon that moment will be gone, but there comes more and more moments ahead, and moments i want to share with a special someone...
But i do know now since i have been going through these changes and since my sobriety i have come to one conclusion everyday that i know i am happy about and can live with: I'm a Fuckin Adult!
now to figure out how to add photos and pics to this .......
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