The lion, the doctor , and the wardrobe

Hello readers, it's been a few days since I've written a blog. I feel like I missed writing and have been meaning to, sorry about the lapse in the blog.
So it's Tuesday, it's going to be 63 today here in Louisville! I guess winter has taken a ride north this year and we skipped straight to spring. I'm ok with it but I do miss snow, snowboarding, but I don't miss the freezing cold.
The sun is shining and it's going to be a good day. I've been working on a new project for the house. I got a very old German radio from work and have been refinishing it and converting it to an iPod dock. I started by removing most of the guts, sanding and stripping the body of the radio. I took out one of the speakers since it didn't produce enough sound and replaced it with a new one that I had in my office her at work. Last night I cut out the mounting port on the top of the body and got the iPod port mounted. Today I'm going to finish getting the rest of the guts fitted and mounted, apply the fabric to the speaker mounts and then assemble the whole thing tomorrow.
Well let's see, my mood these past 4 or 5 days has been up and down, some days are better then others and some days start off bad but quickly get better.
I did get seasons 5 and 6 of doctor who. So as I work on the project I can watch the doctor. I have decided I am going to build a Tardis. I was thinking of using it as a type of mud room at the house as the front door. Or I may just put it on the concrete slab in the yard where a house used to be. Not too sure what I'm going to do yet. I also need to build a set of barn doors for the garage so I can secure the 49 ford in there.
As soon as I get the rest of my stuff from the house back in Cincy this weekend, I'll get my office/beat lab set up and I'm going to go ahead and get busy. I will be putting together a roots dub album called : Lions of the Tribe, Badda skat meets Regulus. I plan on having it done, pressed and released on May 9th. Why may 9th? Well that happens to be the exact day between Badda's and my Earth strong. I will be doing a small run of a few t shirts and maybe a few stickers for the release as well, but that is still up in the air.
But it is about that time to start the work day today. I hope you have a great day and make it better then yesterday ... Think positive! Remember : heart open and soul receptive! Forward ever, backward never!!

Welcome to jamrock!

Today is Tuesday, the aftermath of the weekend hit yesterday and last night. I am in high spirits though and ready for this week. I'm movin forward with a positive direction and positive motivation. Negativity has no room in my life anymore.
Tonight I got invited out to a bar and I'm going to go! Since im new to the Louisville area, I can't turn down an invitation to go out, meet people and make new freinds. A couple of my freinds are working on a scavenger hunt for me to keep me out and about adventuring around Louisville. This is a great thing and I'm glad my freinds are there!!!
Today the sun is shining and that already makes my day better. I woke up feeling good, alert and ready. I feel like I have finally lifted the negativity off of my shoulders and it's a good feeling. I talked it out, meditated, and made positive changes in my routines.
I forgot that yesterday I shot a 1 1/4" nail into my thumb at work. And last night it hurt like hell, today it hurts as well but I'll survive. I am also looking for a new primary physician here in new Albany Indiana. I'm going to be living here in the area for quite a while since I have a great job! Well it's almost that time to punch the clock, listen to some good music and get a bunch of work done too! We have a trade show this weekend/next week in NYC. I may talk to the boss about going to the show to see what our competitors have in stock, see what I can modify here at the shop to improve our designs and boost sales over the competition. I love my job, and I plan on excelling in it anyway possible!! Just gotta keep the positivity flowing and I'll be where I need to!! Until next time everyone, have a blessed Tuesday and I'll write soon!

Waiting for a moment....

Waiting for a moment... Those 4 words play over and over in my head. What moment? Well it's a moment that I think everyone wants to happen at some point in their lives, and I know few have had it become a reality. It's the moment in a romantic film where the main character and their partner get into a nasty fight.. A few days pass or some time passes by and both are miserable and then the moment happens.. That moment is when one of them bursts in the door says something like : " I'm sorry, I can't do this without you. I love you!" and they embrace, kiss and make up... Then happy ending...
Yes that's the moment, the moment all of us long for at some point in life. I may be getting to soft or emotional but hell, I'm a romantic. One in which has been crushed by a woman long ago. One who has been hiding away deep inside a hard exterior and too afraid to come back out until now. Now this time it wasn't intentional that the romantic came out, this time it just happened. Music, life, love and a smile all have made that possible.. And one person in particular.
I know, I know... Bleeding heart stuff... Blah blah blah.. Like I said I decided to open up more to you readers of my blog. I've only gotten feed back from a couple people about my blogs. So it is hard to gauge if I should be open or not. In a way I'm not so concerned about it, I write how I feel and what's on my mind. So really I shouldn't even worry.
I heard a song by M83 that made me start thinking about this. The song is "midnight city". I heard it earlier watching a video that was shot in Dubai over 3 days and they used the song in the video, and now it's just playing in my head. But the only video playing in my head are pictures and small snippets of time and it makes me smile. I'm directing this video, cueing the music just right and playing it over and over. Its alot like the movie "entropy" starring stephen dorff. Which by the way is one of my favorites, and if you're into good romantic films then you'd best be taking my advice and seeing it.
I often wonder who has been reading my blogs. I am curious.. But there is a saying : curiosity killed the cat. So maybe it's best I don't know..Or if you do read it and like it then don't be afraid to share it with others. Well until next time i write... I'll see you all when I return from the dark side of the moon... Goodnight and savor all the moments you can and make them happy moments that stay with you and make you smile.

Canis Aureus one of my favorite!

Sunday, a good day with a promising outlook and a good vibe to start the week right. This morning I watched a documentary on one of my favorite animals, the Golden Dog. The documentary is about the golden Jackal. Set in the highlands of northern Tanzania. I identify strongly with the jackal, the male jackal, or dog as they are called. Loyal, family oriented, hard worker, supplier and romantic. All qualities that are admirable, and see in myself. They mate for life and stick close to their family, the dog is the main hunter and allows the female to eat first, he protects without fear and when called by the female he comes running. The jackal pair is romantic and flirt with each other and keeps their bond strong. It's kinda cute seeing how they go about it, hip checking each other, cleaning eachothers snouts and face.
A tenacious predator , the jackal is a hunter with unlimited stamina it seems. Fighting griffin vultures which are almost 1.5 times the jackal, fighting hyenas which are at least 3 times their size. The animal seems to have no fear and protects his family with a veracity like no other.
I identify with the jackal more and more as I let the documentary sink in and hit home. Yes weird that another animal on the planet can make me think about my own self and make me look internally at what I do and what I can provide. In a way it humbles me, it also makes me realize I'm a great catch to any mate. But enough of that, it's time to do some dishes, watch attack of the giant leeches while I work on my taxes and then relax for a little bit. Today is a good day and only promises to get better, just gotta keep the negatives away, allow for the positives to move in and embrace all the things that I can improve on and the strength to change the things I can! Until tomorrow ladies and gentlemen, I bid you adou...

Facing negativity and positively pushing through

Well decided to write yet another blog today, I have been feeling a little like this is becoming my journal and so I'll treat it as such but not get too deep into my circumstances. For the benefit of sparing you and myself the blah of it.
So I've decided to press out the negatives in my life, no use in negativity dragging me down and keeping my positivity from being on the rise. I have hope and faith in everything and sometimes I feel as if it's been dashed to the side and the negatives creep in. Could be because I'm in a new city and not really doing much when I'm home from work. Creating that cabin fever that we all Dred in the winter. I've noticed that every time I move I always move in the winter, a bad trend but it allows me to get setup and comfortable with my places since I'm stuck indoors most of the time.
I've been putting alot of stress on my faith recently and it's a good thing. For far too long I have taken control of my situation and that seemed like it was a constant struggle. But recently with allowing jah to take over and trust in him, my life has been much easier and well, much more comfortable. There are a lot of good things in the works and with a little work on my end I'll pull through with even more success! I'm on the right track in life, and seem to have found my nitch for now. Just gotta keep pressing on past the negative, it'll drag me down so I gotta keep from letting it grab hold. Smile, it's what keeps me comin back for more!
But for now I think I'll finish up this blog, watch some Bela Lugosi films and then get some sleep. Tomorrow is another day, another day in which I'm going to put to full use! Stay positive and have hope! Because when it comes down to it, without hopes and dreams, what else is there to keep you pressing on?

Relaxing and decompressing today

It's Saturday, woke up really tired but Elvis had to go out and I had to do the routine. It's cold outside and I'm perfectly content with sittin indoors listening to music and waiting out the day with fresh food from the store. I planned on going to Cincy today and finish bringing all my stuff here so I can be finally fully moved in, but the winter storms up north have prevented that. S
So today I've been in a pretty good mood, no complaints and who would listen anyways right? Went to the bank to get some cash to go shopping, looked for season 6 on DVD of doctor who.. Best buy had it on blue ray but I'm not ready to make the commitment to blue ray and a blue ray player yet! So did my grocery shopping and came home to my debit card waiting for me ! But now it's time to clean, enjoy my day of nothing to do, and relax, decompress and take in all that has happened this week. Think on things that I need to work on to make myself happy and leave all the negative emotions, thoughts and actions behind! Make myself a better person a day at a time. Trust in jah and ill make it through anything, a good daily montra!!! Until the next blog when I can write in depth about something.... I'll see you all at the movies!

Jah know... Forward ever, backward never

Good morning Friday! So this week has been up and down, seemed like most of my days were down but got better as the day progressed. I have been having a bit of the depression but it's not doing anyone any good so it's gotta go.
I have found a new rebirth in my faith and each day I look forward to what it brings. Those that know me know I am rasta. Dreads? No, my dreads are my tattoos... My permanent stance on not conforming to what Babylon sees as the status quo. Smoke herb? No I do not partake in the sacrament of herbs or chalice. But I do place my faith in jah.
There is much more to my faith and if you would like to further look into it then I would suggest you do before making assumptions about Rastafari. I would like to thank my bredren Badda Skat for lifting my spirituality to where it is today and keeping me positive. .
When I first quit drinking I went through a very very difficult set of circumstances and felt like I couldn't get through any of it. I had a very emotional and very strong religious experience through meditation. To this day it's one of the most moving moments of my life and I will always remember that! You wanna know what happened right? Well I guess it's high time I go through it and share it with you all. So here we go:
( this all occurred while meditating and after this happened I was completely moved to years for at least an hour or so)
I was running down central ave in st. Petersburg Florida where all the places I hung out at were. The sky's were dark and ominous, I could see all of my freinds out on the sidewalks and I was running down the middle of the street. As I started to pass everyone, they were yelling and cussing and spitting at me. Angry and full of hatred. Confused and kinda scared I kept on running when all of a sudden Badda Skat came running up along side of me and smiled and keep running with me. At this time we passed the emerald and the streets were completely empty, no cars and no people anywhere like a ghost town. The sky's opened up and we were showered in sunshine. I looked over at Badda and smiled, he started changing into a lion and kept running. I too turned into a lion as we ran full stride towards the pier. No body was around and as we passed the park and approached the peir I saw a man sitting on a bench in what looked like a very official military outfit with medals and badges. I ran up to him and sat in front of him. He spoke to me without opening his mouth, and I could here every word. He said "keep your 3rd eye open, trust in I and everything will be ok." as I heard this he touched my forehead and felt like it opened up and was warm. As he spoke I felt it enter through my forehead , like an eye opening to see.....
I quickly came out of meditation and my forehead was really warm and I was moved beyond belief I knew the man .. Haile selassei it was, in the flesh and speaking to me. This single experience renewed my faith in something greater so now each day I know that jah has a plan, I trust in him and allow him to take my hand and guide me along the path, jah knows what is in store for me. Each day is new : forward ever , backward never!!!

Stepping back and closer to that cliff

So today is Thursday. Some days I have alot to do, today for example I have work then I have to do a ton of laundry.. I havnt been to a laundry mat in almost 7 years. So it should be interesting.
I've wrestled with the idea of being more open and expressive in my blogs, allowing you my readers into my life and my view points. Almost like creating a journal or something of that nature. There are a lot of inner things that are going on. Alot of conflict, but this is my winter of spiritual growth and that means alot of internal changes. But in the long run my hopes and dreams will come true! This year do far has been mixed with emotional ups and downs, I have my good days and my bad days. I know what advice I need to be taking but sometimes it's difficult to turn that advice into progress. I've got some good people in my life who I can turn to for anything and I am very grateful for that! It's a blessing. Already just writing a little has freed up a little inner tension, a little inner termoil. I know what I need to do and it's high time I took a step back... Closer to that cliff, strap on the parachute... Jump... And have faith and hope that it opens and I land safely... Well with that being said I'm off to work... Perhaps I'll write more later in today. Seems like I can become more open in this and it's therapeutic. Doesn't mean I have to publish every single written blog.....

Sunday driving with a lady by your side

Last night I got the chance to check out Mike Fair and the Adventure Seekers at the Maple Inn here in Louisville. My friend Matt plays drums for them, headed by Mike on lead vocals and a beautiful gold edition fender strat guitar, Aaron on bass and backing vocals and luke on keys and also doing lead vocals on some songs.
The guys are a little older than Matt and myself, but look like guys that id be hanging out with. Cool and nice, and in talking to them they truelly are interested in the conversation and I respect that! Fine musicians to boot! Everyone has a beard except Luke who rocks a mean mustache.
I was very very pleasantly surprised by them. (actually I'm writing this as I listen to them play live right now!) to me they have a feel of a cross between John Prine, early John Cougar Melloncamp, and the Old 97s! I have to say I love it!! Fantastic songs and great instrumentation. Conjuring up thoughts of cruising along the mountains, wearing my cowboy hat with my lady sitting right by my side on the front bench seat of a hot rod. Letting the breeze roll in as we just travel along the road, letting it take us far into west. Stopping along the roadside to take in the view of a lake nestled in between the mountains, share a few kisses and just being in the moment.
I have to say if you get the chance to check these guys out at anytime please do yourself a favor and go see them! You will not be disappointed!!
Right now the snow is falling outside, I'm in Louisville, I'm out and about seeing a band in a bar and watching the bills lose... tonight is a good night I'm smiling. Enjoying the music and it's great... The bar is maybe full of 15 other people besides myself and the band members. The patrons look like strange figments of John waters film taking place in a seedy honky tonk . The ladies mostly all have that 80s hair and the guys , well seems like they do too, long and in pony tails. Drinking cheap beer, watching football and sadly talking conversations that have no real relevance in life, just usual bar bs to pass the time until they decide if they are going to go home and sleep together or just head home alone. There is a dog that is roaming around, friendly and looks alot like a boxer mix of some sort, named boomer and seems to be a young pup but still big.
I couldn't think of a finer place to see these guys play, the lights are just dim enough and with the warm glow of the beer neons it sets a tone of warmth. I'm not sure how a neon light could be found as a warm glow but it is. As the music plays I'm mentally whisked away to a dreamland or a fantasy land of just driving, with my lady by my side and it's a Sunday afternoon. I'm reminded of the end scene of " the devils rejects" when freebird is playing and before the shoot out with the police. Yeah that's what imagery is in my head . It's a good image and makes me smile ...

I soak it all up and let it Marinate!

Saturday, my first real weekend here in Louisville. It cold and snowy, sets a downtrotten mood as I step out the door and a realization that I'm here! I'm alive! And I'm scared! I'm optimistic! Alot of emotions run though me throughout the days here, but I'm keepin a positive attitude. Having only 2 friends here makes it tough to really get out and see the town and do stuff. So at Kelly's request I added the Louisville gore club on Facebook, I mean what's better than a club who loves horror films? Nothing, except a few hot rod guys to run around with.. But that will come later in the year. But I've been here for 2 weeks and yes it been lonely but I'll over come thAt. I try to keep busy, get my home organized and setup. But it feels like only my bedroom is my sanctuary. I need to work on making the house my whole sanctuary! Im only 2 hours from my closest friends but feels like an eternity, I can always call them when times are beating me down and I appreciate And love them for being there when I need them!
So I'm here! Louisville here I am! Over the last year I have gone through alot of struggle and it finally feels as though y life is finally on the right track! A great job, a new life, an amazing beautiful smart woman.. Seems like everything is going the way it should . I truelly am blessed! I've been through some I the toughest things I've ever faced over the last year and this year I'm makin it mine! I'm due for it! I've made massive strides in myself, I've made myself a better man, a man of my word, a man who can survive struggle and the hardest things life can throw at me! I'm stayin positive because it's time for life to see tht I'm going to make it what I DESERVE! Damn it makes me smile! Since I've been here I've tried to live everyday to the fullest, just by doing 3 things everyday : smiling , not half asses but truelly smiling and being happy. Thinking, taking time to really think in depth and use my mind at its full potential. And last but not least, have my emotions moved to tears, yes it sounds strange but it actually let's you run the gambit of emotions and honestly feels pretty good waking up in the morning now a days.
Well time for me to get going and doing something, I think today I'm gonna do a little gel geocaching. At least I'll be able to get out and see the city a little more and find a little adventure. Elvis might go with me but not sure yet, but I do know he's pretty happy and Im glad I have him with me. There's nothing like coming home to a happy puppy, excited tht YOU ARE THERE. That's what I need, that emotion right there..... Well until next time ... Stay free, and get out and try something new today.... Do it!

For once you start down that dark path.... Forever will it conquer your destiny!!

Oh blog, how have you been? I have missed writing in you and I'm sure you have missed me equally. But sure you havnt. Let's catch up shall we......

Well it's a new year and lots of exciting things are happening ...
I am now living in New Albany Indiana, across the Ohio river from Louisville KY.
I have an amazing new job in which I repair and refinish vintage furniture from around the world, it really is the most awesome job ever.
I have the most amazing woman in my life, without her help I'd be up shits creek with a turd for a paddle!! Really I would!!
I am now a non smoker, you may ask yourself.. How did I get here..
And you may ask yourself.. Did I just quote David Byrne?

Well im not too exciting tonight.. I have been havin a lot of trouble sleeping lately and I think I have pinpointed the problem... Lonely at night, even though my baby lives 4 minutes up the road, it's still enough to make me toss and turn!
I feel as though lately I've become more than I was a year ago today, I was comin to the end of my 3 yr relationship with the muppet, still sober, living in fl and workin 2 or 3 jobs at a time just to make ends meet and it didn't seem like enough. But now it's completely different it's like life has finally come and caught up with me to say " hey son, here I have a gift for you. But you better take it and run with it, hold on and don't slow down... For of you stop or let loose on the reigns it may take a turn for the worse and Once you stRt down that dark path, forever will it conquer your destiny"
But I have no fear, no time to let up on the pursuit of real happiness! It's been a long time coming and I've been overdue for this opportunity and sooo taking it with everything I got!!!! Until next time...... Stay free and don't forget to drink your ovaltine!