a ghost in georgia

once again im writing from my phone. so excuse any errors. i do enjoy be able to do this becuase of the versitile nature of a smart phone... but on with it right? ok

" i woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when i didnt know who i was - i was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the crack of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and i looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didnt know who i was for about 15 seconds. I wasnt scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my wholle life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost. I was halfway across america, at the dividing line between the East of my youth and the West of my future, and maybe that's why it happened right there and then, that strange red afternoon. " - Jack Kerouac "on the road" exerpt.

 so this is one of my favorite passages from the book On the Road, i mean it fits my experience to a T when i left florida and headed back home to ohio this year. I remember traveling up 75 and just before the sun started setting. Elvis and I stopped off to watch the sunset. Elvis is my dog. for those who do not know that. We walked out into a pecan orchard . drinkin an ice tea. it was a strange feeling watching that sunset. i felt as if i was leaving all the immaturity of life behind, maturing more as i was moving north. i felt as if i was like a ghost just moving between states and between lives. not a real person but just a shell who is here today and just a thought in the wind the next day. i remember a soothing feeling that personally i can say felt like a weird right of passage into adulthood... at 30 years old... i do remember a feeling of comfort though... just a new chapter in life starting.. a new story to be shared. the feeling of watching that sunset i will never forget. it seemed to shape my whole life since ive been back. it had that much of an impact on me... but enough for today i gotta get back to work
until tomorrow keep your eye on the sky and an ear out for trains.. watch the rails becxuas i might be comin your way-

cg